Hello again
Yes it is correct when I say I am freezing cold and starving. My stomach has been growling all day long and I only have tea.
I have been wearing all the clothing I own for two weeks now. Yes I washed them once. On the weekend
Now mom is sick of me wearing these clothes and wants me to throw them out. But I say I have nothing else to wear. This is it.
They are filthy. And I cannot wash them until this weekend. Oh wait, I have no laundry soap. Well I will put them through the washer anyways. No dish soap either.
I spoke with the person at the PGT today and he was nothing but rude to me, and hung up on me and told me that they are not going to help me with anything. Even though I have emails with them saying they will help me with this or that.
But all he says is I never promised you that. Of course not. He just took over. This how they operate. Say something and then deny it.
So I am basically screwed. Nothing to give mom at all. I mean nothing. I do not even have her drinks. And mom loves those drinks, and she loves cheese. Since the food is tasteless, mom loves to have cheese with it. And I don't have this to give her.
I feel completely terrible. I know I will cry my face off when I get their and tell mom I don't even have her drinks for her. Her Coke and her Fuze drinks. Mom deserves a better son then me. At least someone who can take care of these little things, like to continue to supply her with her needs.
Not long ago everything was going well. I did not need help with anything. I was in Studying, and making enough to cover mom needs and I was able to spend time with her as well. OK I spend everyday with her. 3 hours anyways. But I don't have her spa products.
So I am at a point where my belief in GOD in not very good. I thought after having absolutely no money since the beginning of December. GOD would help me out. Not so.
I don't know what to think anymore. I need serious help and I have no one to call.
This is the part that makes me feel like I don't want to be here anymore. But mom keeps me from doing anything crazy.
I just wish I had something. Something. A miracle, would be nice. GOD reaching down and touching the PGT and getting them to keep their promises.
I am going now. I don't even know if I can keep writing this for a while. I just don't have the energy to do this. I am so tired and I need to keep my energy for going to see mom.
Just keeping warm, is difficult without food in me.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris
