Hello again
It is frigging cold out there tonight. When I left today and arrived in white Rock it was already minus 5 outside and when I left mom's it was minus 12 and then when I got home it was minus 14 out. I had every thing I owned on and I was still so cold, my fingers were almost frozen solid. I shed a tear and it froze to my face. I had a walk of 1 km home after I got to the bus loop in Coquitlam. That seemed to be the longest walk of my life.
I do not have the clothing for this. But I will not stop going to see mom. Weather snow, nor sleet, nor wind, nor rain. Will stop me from my goal. My goal of never missing a day of visiting my mother. To always be there for her. As I promised her and my father before he passed away.
Now I have been wearing these same cloths for 4 days now and cannot wash them until Saturday. The jeans and shirts are starting to get dirty. And I really only have what I am wearing and because it is so cold out. I have to wear all of it and I am still cold. No toque, gloves nor warm coat.
I wrote the PGT again and said I am freezing cold and I am still going to see mom no matter what. I still need a phone as I am worried that I am going to fall and hurt myself and need a phone to call for help. As I have already fallen many times, but thank GOD I have not hurt myself.
I am not stable walking in this weather. With the cane, it is not very good. I need the special tip and the yaktrax for my feet.
Mom is doing OK. I can't stop hugging her. It is because I know that mom is at the end of year 7 and the average age is 10 years with this disease. I want to spend as much time as possible with her.
To do crafts with her. To put together a photo montage with her. To restore all of her photo's and put them on disk and make a photo frame. I want to be able to cook all the meals for her. Mom loves my cooking and I love cooking for her. I love to cook and I don't and won't cook for myself. Oh yea I don't have any groceries to do this anyways. Mom is not liking the food their. I don't blame her
Now when I am their lately, I cry allot. This is because I don't know no how long I have left with her. I just have been thinking about this lately. I am stuck in Coquitlam, the PGT is refusing to do what they promised me. A cheque for $10,000.00 which would solve my immediate problems. Enough time for me to get involved with the Alzheimer's association of BC. Part time. You see I don't even want to do this. As all I want to do is spend as much time as possible with mom. And do all the things she has not been able to do in the last 6 years. Since she has been warehoused. Yes I use this term, as it is the only way to describe the way it really is.
Mom should of been out enjoying her golden years doing things, shopping for herself. Not having me buy her bra's and clothing and everything else for her. Seeing her old friends, before they die too. Going places. As in road trips. Mom has never done this, and never even heard about this until I told her a few weeks ago. Get in the car and go. See where you end up and have lunch and go back home. Going to see plays and everything one would do in their golden years. This I want to do for her.
If I do take on employment, it has to be in the capacity of Psychology in some way. Research, helping people with this disease.
You see, this is where I mean I have lot''s of time after, latter on. Not now, it is mom;'s turn.
Mom's turn to shine. This will maybe awaken her senses and help her to extend her life and get back allot of what has been lost due to being warehoused.
I have to go, I am crying like a baby now, and my glasses are getting all steamed up and I am loosing it.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
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