Hello
First let me start by saying this is day 8 of not eating anything. Well my stomach is not doing well and my vision, even with my glasses on is crapy. It is even hard to see the computer screen. And I am out of tea, the one thing that I have been living on. Besides butt smokes. And I have absoutly nothing for my mother.
That is a shame. That I cannot get help with stuff for mom. I have gone 8 days now and well my stomach is now pretty much ruined. And a few more days I will end up in the hospital whether I what to or not. I think I will just faint somewhere and not be able to get up. My strength is just about gone. I notice it when I pick up mom. I am constently tired. And yet I can't sleep. I am falling all the time.And this is not good for someone who is injured. I feel completly out of it. And actually I am out of it.
I just bugs me that I have nothing for mom.
So today, Actually last night when I got home I opened up my gmail and I had an email from Stephen Flynn of lthe PGT telling me that their was a cheque waiting for me today Friday. And we spoke about this and it was to help me get my phone working again, groceries for a while, a 3 zone bus pass to see mom in White Rock, and money to get mom her drinks, fruit an snacks.
So I am completly broke and I beg to get on the bus, thinking I have money waiting for me downtown. I get down their and their is no cheque for me. Now I just went downtown without anything and I thought I would have some money to get home and eat and get mom things and finaly getting my phone working again. After all I need a phone to contact Ocean Side in White Rock to discuss mom's treatments.
Nothing, and of course Stephen Flynn is not in today and so I spoke with someone esle and they told me their is no cheque. So I show them the email and they just said nothing. Except that their is no cheque.
Well I got very pissed off, I told them that I can't get home. I have no money. And I need these funds to eat and get mom her things she needs. That mom has been going without and she needs these things. It is hot out and mom is drinking allot and nothing.
Their was to be a cheque for $500 and nothing. So I was stuck down town. I tried to get on the bus and the driver said no. So I went to the West Coast Express and tried to get on and I did not even get down the escalator and I was caught. So here I am downtown with no money in my pocket and need to get home.So the only thing left was the sky train. And I managed to get to Lougheed and then I had to wait for 5 busses before I new someone who would let me on.
Then I got home, grabbed what I have for mom. Her beauty things and the bag. And left to beg another ride. I ended getting to see mom late and I only had one half hour with her, before she wants to go to bed.
Well back to beggin a ride back to Coquitlam Centre. And then to walk home. Oh yea after going to get my perscriptions refilled.
Now I have no phone and no way of getting to see mom, except for begging a ride. I am to at the hospital at 9 am on Monday to go with mom to a dental appointment. I don't even know if I will be able to stand. As for the lack of food in me. I have never gone this long without eating. And now no tea. And the worst part is nothing for mom. I am so crazy at the PGT that I need to sue them.
And I have to get intouch with Ocean side and get out their to see them. And to get intouch with ICBC and Translink. So I can get some kind of income to live. I was injured and now nothing.
You know I am trying very hard to do this. But not eating is really getting to me. And not having anything for mom is the worst part of everything.
I am really getting scared. and what coud happen to me from not eating. I can't get sick, mom needs me to be their for her. I can't miss any days. I am really frightened. I don't know what happens to the body with not eating for this long.
And the worst part is no one cares. If I starve or not. That is sad.
I finally got the pictures off of my phone, with the pictures of mom's bruses, and black eye and how she looks now compared to her walking in.
I beg of anyone, please help me. I am really not doing well and extremely frightened about what is going to happen to me if I continue to not eat for more days.
I have checked it out and when someone gets to 18 days wthout eating they die.
I have to go, as I just need to go and have a cry.
I will, tomorrow, put pictures up of mom.
GOD Bless an good night
Kris Schmuland
