Hello
Well it is day 8 of not having anything to eat. Nothing at all . For some strange reason I feel pretty good today. Oh yea my stomach is really bloated, and I have a huge headache. And I am upset that I have to go through this without anyone even caring. Or even wondering how I am doing. Oh yea I tell you how I am doing. And I am doing crappy.
And after falling down some stairs I hurt even more. My wrist is extremely painful. I can't pick anything up. And I can only move it a certain way. And my schoder hurts and my lower back. It is also very painful to walk.
Well I can't even phone anyone. And the PGT tells me to get some information and they will write a cheque for Friday. But no, that is not going to happen. I was given another line today about the phone. Basically telling me no, they will not help and that it is my responsibility. Well yes, and if mom was not sick and dying, I would not even worry about it. But it is needed for mom and keeping in touch with the hospital and staff and doctors for mom's health care.
And nobody is even addressing the fact that I have to take the bus 2 hours their and back. And that is a major issue I have. Nobody is even throwing alternatives at me.Except to bad. The family doesn't care if I have to travel that much. Of course I will do it and I will continue to enjoy visiting with mom. I only have mom left for my family and when mom is gone. I no longer will have any family. That is all that is to it. Every time I think and know I will miss mom greatly. And I do not know how it is going to be.
I do know this is that I will have lots of fodder to take into courts.And sue everyone.
I went and say mom tonight and she was not hungry tonight. Just wanted her beauty treatment and for me to sing to her. She loves it when I sing to her. I am so very happy. And this is the only time during the day when I can actually say I am happy.
I have done nothing during the day ever sense I was injured in July. I hate this, I am loosing allot of money everyday that I cannot see and work with clients. I can't sit and work on my web site as it just hurts to much. With this I write a little and then take a break. So it takes me along time to write my blog.
Ok most of the day today I was Ok with the fact that I am into my 8th day without eating, but now I am extremely hungry and feeling very weak. My stomach is extremely hungry. I am completely detached. My concentration is shot and my entire body is starting to pay the price. I really don't know what is going to happen next with my body. I have never had to go this long with out absolutely nothing. Oh well. I might not make it through the weekend.
So I am not sure if mom is looking forward to the move. I do know she is upset that I am not eating and I have to take a bus to White Rock. 50 to 60klms Where I should have a car. Except oh yea the van was taken away from me in order that the PGT could use mom's money to pay for a companion service. To the tune of over fifty thousand dollars. Nice don't you think. And the answer I get it is to bad that you have to take the bus.
After all I have been traveling around the lower mainland visiting mom and it has all been interesting.
Yet we have ICBC and Tranlink who are just ignoring me and the fact that I got hurt on the bus and am loosing money like crazy. And I lost my phone, I can't clean properly, Walking is more and more difficult. Riding the bus injures me even more. As my body is falling apart.
I love my mother and will put up with the pain to visit her. But I will not stop writing about those who have put mom and I in this place.And caused all of these problems. They who are reading this and those involved know who you are.
Again I am not making any sense so I will say good bye
GOD Bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
