Hello again
First I wish to thank all who have read this Blog. I have had the most people read this, well I don't think I have had this many views in one day. So I do very much appreciate it. Even if you are reading this and thinking what a looser or is this guy for real. But thank you anyways.
Now I have been to the church I am attending and have spoken with a pastor. I was put in touch with another pastor who might help those in need. I did receive a hamper. Though I do very much appreciate the hamper. I am getting food from many other places this season. I am not lacking in this respect.
What I am lacking, which is why I approached them in the first place, is my house insurance didn't go through, my bills are mounting and I will most likely be cut off soon if I don't make some kind of payment. I need the house insurance. What if there is a fire or flood or someone breaks in and steals my things. I am then out allot of money. Yes I do have things I saved up to get these things. A little bit at a time. That was then and this is now. And that was a while ago that I bought my things. I just would like to keep them or protect them. But I don't have the funds to pay them. And I have an NSF charge to pay as well, for the house insurance that didn't go through my bank. I had to go into the cable office and tell them I would make a payment next week. I don't see how I am going to do this. I do know that the church will help out with funds. They pay the things directly. And that is OK with me. At least they are paid or partially paid. They were going to help out with something else, but it was to late I had taken care of it.A day to late. I sold something and with the funds I paid this bill.
I do have several things on Craigslist,for sale, but there is no one seeking what I am selling. It took almost three weeks to sell what I did the other day. Everything that I am selling is new and in the box. I have not unpacked them because I don't know if I can stay here. I have many things that are not unpacked because of this.
I had a plan when I moved in and it was going great. A job, a roommate etc... Then the job goes and the roommate to follow. I have continuously been trying to find work. Even though I am not suppose to work. According to the doctor, my lawyer.. I need to work. So today I changed direction, and today I was applying for jobs that don't involve me lifting anything. I am trying.But I can't seem to find the assistance that I really need. OK I can't lift anything,it hurts to much. I can't even typed without it hurting me.Raise my arms up past my chest. My back is just killing me. What really is bothering me is that I can't seem to keep my head up. It is falling forward. It hurts like crazy
Yet the thing that might help me. A physiotherapist, I can't go to. There is a user fee that is refundable, but I don't have the funds to pay that user fee...
Well being alone is not fun. I have not had a conversation with anyone in over a week. Speaking with the pastor doesn't count as a conversation. Something meaningful I mean. Nothing. I don't know if having a conversation with myself counts. Not that meaningful. But I have to speak to someone even if it is myself.
So there is a little over a week before Christmas day, and the way it is looking, it is going to be a very lonely existence for me. Sure I will go to church this Sunday and Christmas Eve, ;but who cares. I will be going by myself.and leaving by myself to come back to an empty place. Empty without a soul to spend the rest of Christmas Eve with. Oh pity me once states. Yes please take pity on me. I believe I deserve it. After all I believe I am doing everything right. I have done what was right in the eyes of GOD. Taking care of mom. I grieved and still not over it yet and won't be, ever! But I am trying to get my life gong again. Yet it is just getting worse for me.
I am afraid I will be out on the street very soon. I will be able to catch up on rent, but I will be short on rent for next month and no way to catch up on it....
I have been writing this, having to take many breaks tonight. But I just can't keep writing. I am in to much pain. It seems that what I love to do is being taken away from me as well. Write this Blog. It is part of my life. I need to write this. I will continue to write this, even if it takes me hours to write it. Taking as many breaks as necessary.
GOD Bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
https://gofundme.com/krisschmuland This is to give my mother a memorial service for January 31,17
https://www.gofundme.com/anewmesmile For dental work.
Kristopher Schmuland
#409-15216 North Bluff Road
White Rock, BC
Canada, V4B0A7
Please I do need a miracle
