Hello again
It is coming closer to Mom's Birthday. Thanksgiving today. As mentioned I usually make mom a dinner with everything that one would have on Thanksgiving. So this year I don't even get to do that. It is a very lonely day for me, today. I miss mom greatly and I am having a difficult day. As well as mom's birthday on the 12. I have always made sure I celebrated these two days separately. To give mom two separate dinners and cards etc............ I loved doing this for mom. Now nothing. Just me and me only.
I am truly alone in this great big world.
I am trying to do my best. I am applying for jobs. But it really pisses me off that I had a job and now I need to find another one. Oh well I will send more off tomorrow. I spent last week doing just that. Had another interview, which I mentioned. About the last words out the owners mouth were thank you SIR.
So Wednesday is mom's Birthday. I will buy her flowers, put them beside her urn and a card as well. I have been doing this randomly anyways. Flowers that is.
Brain fog again today. Very difficult to concentrate on much...
Today was just a day of nothing. Being alone, Trying to figure out what to do. Cleaning up my place a bit more.
No more roommate, so rent is on me from now on. I need a job, now, so I can get paid by the end of the month.
I can't move.
I have no choice but to trust in GOD that all will work out.
Please pray for me.
Need to go to church again. It is time.
Also pray that the people who took mom's chair gets punished.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
