Hello again
Tonight I don't think I will be getting any sleep, as last night. I really tried to sleep last night but no luck. I didn't even want to get out of bed today. Did anyways. Just my depression kicking in.
As I will be going for the job interview tomorrow and I will get it. To start the following week. Then I am freaking out. OK I am freaking out now. I get the job and then no way of getting there and purchasing work boots. Again I don't care what I eat for that time. I just need the job. It will pay a decent living wage. Way more than I am making now. Which I am wanting. Then I don't need to get a roommate and have things mess up as they always do with roommates...
Well now I wait and see what tomorrow brings. I know I need to get one thing done this week. Besides this. I do have to write the other two companies and make an appointment with one of them. The retail store. Clothing.
I just don't know what I will do.
I am stuck and rightly so. But again. It seems that I brought this on myself. I just don't seem how.I am doing what everyone does in this situation. I really have applied for jobs everyday, from the day I lost the other job... Went on a trial. But that job would of not provided me with enough hours to be able to cover everything. And that is not any kind of luxury's or going out anywhere.
Now I am done with that.
I need someone to talk to. I am not doing well. This is starting to overwhelm me. Big time. I am getting worried and very stressed out.
I have been going through mom's photo's and this alone is overwhelming me . But I have to, I am missing mom. And I will need to do this sooner or later. Sooner is better as I can become better at dealing with mom's passing.
OK I am not making any sense to myself now, so I will end this now.
Please pray that this............................... I just need help and if I get the job, I can get there and back.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
