Hello again
The reality is that I don't even know if I should take this job or not. Sure I can do it, and sure I can get up at the time needed to get to the job.
Here in lyes the problem, again. I don't have the funds necessary to get me there and back. And I would have to be there at 5:30 am everyday. No bus service. But someone I know said I can use there old car, and buy it off of them over time. But no gas money to get there. As it is, because the roommate changed his mind and is no longer going to be living here. I have to pay the whole rent. I don't make enough now to do that. But this job will pay enough to cover that and more.
So I am thinking of calling them and saying sorry, but then I don't have a job and will have to find another place to live. To soon to find a place now.
So my depression deepens. I am getting very stressed out. I was trying to find some kind of assistance today. Try again tomorrow.
I just can't stop thinking about all the crap that is going on. I know some is my fault, but not all of it. I am a good person. I am not harming anyone or causing anyone problems. Keeping to myself. I still have to go and be tested to see if I have cancer. I put off the test already once. Had no one to drive me home. Next test December 22. I just didn't want to deal with it now. As it is I have two serious illness's. Parkinson's and fybromialgia plus Diabetes. Don't want to know anything else right now. To much to deal with. And I didn't diagnose myself I was tested by professionals/specialists. And I got a second and third decision for the Parkinson't diagnosis. And it took years to get the other diagnosis for Fybromialgia
So I leave now.
GOD bless you and have a good night
Please pray if you wish that this is solved.
Kris
