Hello again
Well I have to say Saturday was a decent day I went downtown to have my laptop fixed, I wasn't able to connect to the wifi and my home or anywhere. It took a few minutes and it was done. They just removed the driver and re installed it. Now it works fine. As I was on my way downtown, friends called me, I had to miss the call as I was trying to get on the train. Didn't make the train, called back, no answer. So after my laptop was fixed I gave them a call. They invited me for dinner and said they would drive me home. It was a good dinner and home I came. A good day.
Last night after they dropped me off I watched a movie, The movie was 3 hours long, so it was really later when I got to sleep. And up early today.
I am tired now, as I just didn't want to just sit around today, so off to downtown and walked around. Met someone I know on the bus, we spoke on the way into town. Then I walked with her to the place she was going. I have know her for several years. She use to be a caregiver for my mother. And she lives here in White Rock. I run into her once in a while. So not bad of a day as well.
Yet I still was depressed beyond belief I am freaking out. I am trying to get a job. Had a roommate, he screwed me over, now I either move, no place to go, or I pay the rent myself. I am trying. I send resumes out each day and will be back at it again tomorrow.
In the mean time, I am freaking out. Some told me to sell things. I have nothing of value to sell. Nothing.
It is just frustrating and very depressing.
This was a very hard week for me, mom's birthday and all. I am glad I had a decent day yesterday. Now I am at home and alone..
Even though I wanted to move and not really have roommates. When you have roommates, there is always someone there to talk to if one wants to talk. But now I am talking to myself. I don't count speaking to my mother, I did that where I was living anyways.
So my final thought for today, If something were to happen to me, no one would even notice. So why be around.
Not getting anywhere, no one now, but myself, My mother was my only family.
Wow it really hurt typing this tonight. Sorry I can't write anymore for tonight.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
