Hello again
Today was another day of sending out resumes. At least 8 resumes I sent. Plus put my resume up on a few job sights.
Cleaned up more of my mess around the house and outside. Boxes, excess garbage from unpacking. The place is almost done, but if I don't get a job right away, I might have to pack and, well put my stuff somewhere. I like this place, I am trying to get a job. Again I had a job and I would be in a great place now.
I have nothing of value to sell, so I will have to trust GOD that HE will work everything out. I really would like to work in a Church environment, helping seniors with resources and advocacy. This would allow me to use my Christianity and advocacy together to assist those in need. What I bring to the table is many years of experience taking care of my mother and advocating for her and others. The most experience I have every obtained.
But according to all the non family, I never worked a day in my life. So it wasn't me who ran my own graphics company. Or helped run a west coast fashion company. Or or and or. .......... But I never worked a day in my life. Or the most important position of all. Looking after my mother for over a dozen years. Being there daily, I mean daily for those years. Traveling all over the Lower Mainland to look after mom as well as my father, before he passed away, Yet I never worked a day in my life.
So I continue looking for a job. A job until I can find a position that will utilize my skills. Again according to my non family, I have none.
I will not even go there anymore. They mean nothing to me and I am happy with that. The one thing that does piss me off is my great aunt being moved and they won`t even tell me where. She was the only one who I got along with in the family. She is lonely, I know this. And I could do her allot of good by just visiting her, talking to her and helping her in what ever way I could. That really bothers me. Because I am the only one in this family who has this much experience taking care of someone with Alzheimer`s, strokes and Dementia. Not a single other person in this non family has the experience I have. But they don`t even want me to visit her.
So I wipe my feet of the dust that they are. And move on. I will no longer even acknowledge them, if I see them in public. I am going back to our previous arrangement that worked for me. Totally ignoring them . I have no need of any of them. I haven`t and I never will.
Now it was an OK day for me, depression is always with me, so I do learn to cope with it. But it is always with me. It is starting to really hurt my arms typing. As it is now.
But I will not stop writing this blog, no matter how bad it gets. I will figure out a way to continue to write.
I need to end my blog for the night. I will be back.
GOD bless and good night.
I will still ask again if anyone can help me give mom closer. By giving her a memorial service. I can`t find the address for go fund me.
Bless you all
Kristopher Schmuland
