Hello again
I went to the fireworks in Vancouver last night I walked to much and today my right leg is just inflamed and it hurts like crazy. Just another thing to add to the list. Never really thought that I would have this much problem with my leg. I guess I was wrong. I could barely walk today while downtown. It hurt so very much. That made my trip into town, to just get away and be by myself, very short. I was to go meet someone at the parade in White Rock, but I needed to call my friend and cancel.
I needed to get away. I need to get away. I sat for a minute and before I knew it, I was tearing up. OK I was starting to cry.
Today is 6 months since mom passed away and there is still no memorial service for her. I am such a looser for not getting this done. I know no one else will do this for mom. Just like no one else was there to take care of my mother.
So I will just do it myself. I will call tomorrow and get a price for a service for mom and find out dates that are available . Then I will let everyone know. I will be polite and ask what days they are available for this to happen. Then just start getting it together . I will find the funds to do this. Somehow.
Tonight I am just wanting to be somewhere else, anywhere else but here. This is really wearing on me. Time to really get something together.
I have so much to do. The police still have not responded to me, there is no sign that the missing parts are going to be returned, anytime soon. So off to the Fraser Health head office and file a complaint with them, call the newspapers and get this happening.
I still don't know about my living environment, what is going on with this. I need a place.
I would move to somewhere in the middle of now where. I just need the money to do that and I would in a heart beat. A small town, with a house beside a lake. Just me and mom's ashes.
I need to also speak with a lawyer about a wrongful death suit against Al Hogg I guess it would be Fraser Health. Another thing that I need to do before time runs out. I guess one only has a certain amount of time to file a law suite.
I am just not doing well and I need to talk to someone about all of this. But I know no one to do this with. Can't afford a counselor, no counselors to speak with that are pro rated. And being summer, there is not much for services available to anyone. OK for me and anyone in my situation.
Help is what I need. Not financial. Just someone. I guess because all my family thinks I am a user, I won't be getting any assistance or comfort from and of them.
Or anybody I know. No one gets it. I see the grief counselor Tuesday, Maybe then.
I need to go now I am just not well
GOD and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
