Hello again
Tonight I am very hot and it is late. I have been getting home after 11 pm lately. Not good, as I don't have time to do anything. The next thing I know it is 2 am. Or it is midnight and I haven't even eaten or started to make anything.
Now when I arrived to see mom she was up today, after two days of being in bed. And having to listen to the TV of the roommate up at volume 70. It has been 3 months now since I first complained. And all I wanted was the TV to be moved to a new location. And do you think these people could do a simple thing like that.
It was a light dinner for mom tonight. Sushi, avocado and chicken. It was the right amount for her. We finished this and she had a wonderful dessert.
It was a nice evening with mom tonight. Got to hold her hand while she fell asleep. We talked and laughed. I sang to her.
Some nights are not all full of strife
Below is the update I posted on Gofundme Please help me out to purchase hearing aids. Go to
www.Gofundme.com/yugmns to donate..
God bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
Well a week and nothing.
You know today it was difficult for me. I have always wanted children and realized that I am 54 years old and most likely will not have kids. I would make a great father.
This is because I spent my 30's being an alcoholic and pot head. To busy being a drunk to find someone and knowing I was a drunk, didn't want to put someone through that.
I have been straight now for over a decade.
I wanted children to watch them grow up. But I am responsible for my mother whom I get to watch die a slow death from Alzheimer's and strokes. Not a pretty death at that. I watched my father die of the same thing.
But I get to be responsible anyways for someone. I thank GOD for this. To take care of my mother is the best thing in the world.
So being a drunk sure did it's number on me. I am loosing my hearing and here I am begging your help to get hearing aids.
I am a very poor person. I am responsible to take care of a certain part of her expenses. I do without fail. I go without. But so did my parents.
All of the car accidents I have been in, all of them were the other persons fault, have taken a toll on me. I need a cane to walk and have serious back problems.
On top of this I have Parkinson's. This, there is no cure for either. And loosing my hearing.
I really don't know what to do about this. Here I am pouring my heart out to all of you. Thinking that I might get some help.
As I have mentioned, I need to hear to be able to take care of mom. To speak with the staff and communicate what I desire to be done. Or to file a complaint if it needs be.
I ask with an honest heart. Please help me to reach my goal.
I really need your help.
Some of the staff don't even think I realize what my mother is going through. I do, I tell them, but I need to be strong for mom. She knows what is going on. She knows she is dieing. She knows she can't speak anymore. Or use her left arm or walk. Or even wipe nose. She is aware that she is dependent on everyone for everything. And mom knows I am there to make sure she is treated right.
I don't know if I brought this up. But when I get there, the staff don't have to feed her, get her changed for bed, make her bed, wash her up at night. Brush her teeth and so on and so on. I do this, and I do this willingly .
Mom doesn't need someone who is always crying. Oh my mother is dieing, what to do. Do exactly what I am doing. Being strong for her.
Don't worry I have my moments, many at that, where I just cry. I know my mother is dieing. I know this is the way it is. I read mom, that is how I know what she is saying.
I don't know when or how long mom has left. But I am there and will be there. I know it will probably kill me when she does pass away.
I have no family, but for mom. No one to turn to for help or support. I am alone, outside of visiting mom. I am to poor for my old friends to hang out with anymore. And they don't believe I should be doing this anyways.
I need to hear. Please help me.
