Hello again
So I am just completely removed from faith now. I just am not believing. As it stands I don't think I will set foot in another church.
All these Christians tell me how much they help other's, Well I say this is not true. I am without and have been for a week now. I have never asked anyone to pay my rent. I just ask for some help. So I don't starve. I work hard to take care of my mother. More so than anyone else that I have seen or heard of.
I can't afford to move, without help. I try to find a place and every time I find a place I can afford, I loose out.
I am very tired by the time I get home at night. Yet I would do nothing else. This is the most important job I have had in my life. The looser life I have had. I have an education, but have done nothing with it for many years. To me it is useless now. But I want to go back to school and study Traditional Chinese Medicine. I believe in this completely. But I can't get a student loan and I don't have the funds to do this. If I did I would of started, well, 5 years ago, when I thought of it. And I would be already finished.
Let me get back to the fact that I these Christians have been preaching to me for a while on the values of their churches. Yet they all know what I am going through and they want to talk to me about fasting and tithing. Yet I say to each and everyone of them that I have been fasting for a week now, not by choice. As for tithing, I have nothing.
Then I say if you help people, I need help. Nothing, absolutely nothing is done about it. Then this person comes over the other day and knows what is happening and then proceeds to brag about how much meat he just bought and that both of his freezers are full. Knowing, I have nothing.
I am just tired of all these so called Christians. It seems they are Christians on Sunday.
If I am wrong, forgive me. But prove me wrong. I dare you.
Other wise what I believe stands.
Have to go, starting to get hungry, so the best remedy is to go to sleep.
I will recap the week tomorrow. But for now, this is it..
Good night
Kris Schmuland
I have allot to say about the abusive behavior of the PGT. Tomorrow as well.
