Hello again
As it has been in the past, Mary is very tired on the weekends. Like today. I got their and was feeding her dinner, but she was eating with her eye's closed. Her eye's where extremely red. And she was rubbing them.
Mom just wanted to hold my hand. This is what she does when she is tired and just wants to sleep. I did get her to eat/drink the smoothie I made her and brought her today.
Mary just didn't want to eat. I talked her into eating something. A little at least. OK half of what was given to her and what I put on a plate.
Got her into bed and washed her face and arms. Waited until Mary was changed, before I washed her legs and feet and applied lotion.
So today/tomorrow is Mother's Day and all I can do for her is make dinner for her. I have no way of getting her flowers. Unless of course I go around and pick them from people's yards. I might just have to do this. I have a card for her, but no flowers.
This really bother's me, all I want to do is make this day extremely special for mom. I do what I can.
I will pray tonight that GOD intercedes and supplies a miracle for me. Well actually for mom.
I have been experiencing a lack of faith.Unbelief that things will change.
I hope they do for mom's sake, It is time to move to White Rock.
I think I will just pack everything and see what happens
I am looking and looking.
Nothing so far concerning the not being able to take mom off the ward. Well it doesn't help that I don't have a phone and the charger is broken.
I can't even play music for mom or play the movies I put on my phone, for mom to watch today, on Mother's Day.
You need to understand I will do whatever it takes to make mom happy and keep her healthy.
Anyways time to go again.
Feeling very tired. Just stressed out.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
