Hello again
I would like to first start out by giving you some holiday safety items
Unplug everything before you leave
Don't put any of your present box's out in the trash. It is the best way for a thief to see what goodies you got for Christmas. Take them to the recycling centre.
Now tonight. I was waiting for the bus to come home from downtown and this attractive girl says to me.. Aren't you cold. I said, but yes I am. Shouldn't you put something warmer on. And my response, the polite one, was I would if I could, but this is all I have, so this is what I wear. I wanted to tell her that yea, I am and what business is it of yours. Go away. That is exactly what I wanted to say. But I gave the polite answer. She did not know what to say after that. She just walked away.
Now, I am very cold, and it is no thanks to the PGT, and Stephen Flynn and his breaking of his promises that leaves me cold and mom to be without a Christmas. I am pissed off like crazy at him, and i was entertaining thoughts which I never think of. I still am thinking about them, But they will never happen. I do not believe in violence. But I do believe in action and it is time to take action, if I actually want a Christmas for mom, and to get warm clothing, for me.
If I don't do something about it, I will be a chicken shit and not worth anything. As it is I see that I am as worthless as I thought I was. Well just by the lack of response I have been receiving. Thanks, makes me feel great. NOT
At least I can admit it, but my mother does not deserve this treatment. Do not hold the sins of the son against the mother.
My mother has been the kindest and warmest person I know. Yes everyone says this.
I need to give her the best Christmas every and next year even better. What also bugs me is that everyone their knows mom goes to bed at 7PM and we are on a schedule. And if I put her to bed latter than 7 mom gets mad, And tries to take a swing at me.
The problem is, that I start getting mom completely relaxed and she has to go to the bathroom, right after dinner. And no one takes her. Then after she is relaxed, after I do her feet they come to take her to the washroom and get changed. At this point, mom is almost ready for bed And very relaxed, I mean extremely relaxed.
As tonight, they noticed how relaxed and ready for bed she was and took her late. And while she was with the staff, in the washroom, Mom must of been pissed off, because it was so long waiting for this. She punched one of the staff members. Look I am sorry mom punched her. And I did tell mom,please don't punch anyone, as the more you get mad, the longer we will be here You need to be calm. So we can get you out of here. And on the other hand, I have mentioned many, many times that mom needs to go after dinner and mom has a schedule. Last night they gave me shit, for putting lotion on her hands and arms, before they took her to get changed. I did say that we were waiting for along time and I have things I need to get done, before I put her to bed by 7PM. and this waiting so long gets mom and I both upset.
Now getting mom up and walking, well what they told me was a bunch of who-wee. Mom needs to walk and it is I who is going to do this for her. I will need to have a meeting with someone.
Well, in the last three weeks I have only had one conversation with anyone, besides my mother. It is not good. And I find my need to not be touched and having my space is increasing ten fold.
I just don't see where this is going. What I am to do. Is the question I am asking myself and seeking. I wait for the miracle, and I wait on GOD.
I have never been this stressed out and have never had such a bad Christmas season to date. Yes I know it is 10 days away. But I need to get help now.
Anyways, I still do not bring this pissed off attitude into the hospital with me. It is left at the door. I put on a smile. And just be as polite as possible before I even get to the hospital.
So please, I am desperately seeking.
GOD bless and good night
Kris
