Hello again
It is cold out their. And there are dark and lonely days ahead for me. There are 12 days until Christmas and I have nothing to make my mother's Christmas special. Also I really froze out there tonight. I don't have enough of any articles of clothing or jacket to keep me warm out their.
I wish mom would eat more. Tonight mom barely ate anything. She did not even finish her lemon pie. It was an OK dinner tonight. No flavour though.
I really wish I could afford to bring mom some home cooked meals. At least she ate them. It has been to long now, since mom ate a whole meal. Mom is becoming increasingly tired.
I, when I leave White Rock am just completely depressed. I need to find an answer to this problem, of no Christmas presents, no groceries to make mom dinners, and no anything for Christmas.
I hate this feeling of nothingness of feeling as though there is a very large whole in my life.
I will tell you that I leave these feelings at the door when I get to the hospital to visit mom.
Can anyone even understand what I am saying.
I don't know, since there is becoming less and less people reading my blog daily. Only 19 of you read me yesterday, I really wish everyone would understand my commitment to my mother. And how it is important for me to shower mom with gifts this Christmas.
I have nothing to give her, bring her, do for her, and over all I just want it to be the best Christmas ever..
I send my best to y`all and may you find it in your hearts to send it my way. Anything, gift cards, groceries at my door. Cheque`s in the mail box etc..... etc .......
GOD bless and good night
Kris
12 days left
