Hello again
I am getting worried about mom, she is not eating much anymore. And when I say not much, I mean hardly anything. Not even enough to fill a squirl. I brought mom Chinese food tonight and she barely ate any of it. Mom has not been eating much at all lately. It is like she is giving up.
And tonight mom was crying all evening. OK I was late getting their. But I have told mom many times, which I told her again tonight. I will always be here for her, and will be their everyday. Without fail. But she continued to cry tonight.
My sisters were their today and I am sure something happened then to cause this. This is something my sisters would do. Say something or do something to get mom upset. As in tonight, they treat her like a baby and that is the way they speak to her. They speak down to her.
I don't know what they are up to, but they are up to something. I can feel it. And mom is to upset lately. I have not seen mom cry this much ever before.
I really need to get mom to eat. If that means cooking for her that is what I have to do. I just need to find the funds for groceries. I don't care if I eat, not at all. As a matter of fact, I am not hungry at all, lately. She is always tired and wants to go to bed. Of course she wants her spa treatment, first.
It seems like mom is giving up, just not wanting to be alive. I have to do something about this mess.
I need a huge miracle right now. I mean a huge miracle. One that transcends the normality of everyday. Mom needs to get out of that place. Mom waited over 1/2 hours tonight to go to the washroom.
It will be 4 years this December 30 th that my father passed away. Also mom is completely bored. Not doing anything, talking to anyone, or going anywhere. Both my sister's have cars, excuse me, vans, so they can take mom out to do things with her. But neither of them speak to mom, without a condescending attitude. Talking down to her.
After mom went to the washroom and was changed for bed, she was a little happier. And I put her to bed. And I hugged her gave mom her good night kisses.
Yes I am lonely, but mom is even more lonely. Sitting in her wheelchair all day long, eating for that is not appetizing in anyway and is cold, by the time they feed her, when I am not their.
Mom is giving up, And I cannot allow this. Mom has Lot's of time left, and I want mom to enjoy her life.
Once mom is discharged, that is the time to find a place for the two of us. Of course anyone can come and visit mom anytime they want.
I really need this miracle to happen now,. And I ask that whom ever believes in GOD please pray for a huge miracle for us. And for it to happen right away.
Also could you please pray that money would come for groceries to cook for her.
I will need to have this resolved asap. As I can not see mom upset like this. I do understand what she may be feeling. Since Christmas is upon us. And for me this is the worst time of the year for me. I am always alone at Christmas and well, mom is completely and absolutely alone. Yes I am their everyday. But I am only her son. The others don't spend time with her. Or do anything for her.
I have to say good night. I am tired and very depressed about mom crying and not eating.
GOD Bless and good night
Kris
