Hello again
Well today I went and looked a basement suite in White Rock. It was nice, I have another to look at tomorrow. Two I think. And I have contact the owner of the suite I saw today on Tuesday. There are at least three more. And theses places are within a few blocks of the hospital. Cool I say.
Well I brought mom her fruit and drink. I need more. I also, right after dinner, I did her beauty treatment. I have to figure out how to get the music we listen to, on to something else. As it is only playing on my expense paper weight. My non working phone. It is a subscription service and I am having to open up new email accounts every month to keep it going. And the older phone that I thought would work, will ot except an sd card. Which is needed to play Slacker on this phone. There goes that idea. I will have to figure this out very soon.
Tomorrow, is Monday and this is when I might hear something about my previous blog.
It is a tough thing for me to just pick up and move. Oh I want to, but Coquitlam has been home for many years. And I know it is time to go. Move on. The one thing I keep forgetting is the fact that there is a beach down the road. I am only concerned about being close to mom. This place today was 3 minutes away, seriously. One thing is that nothing is central like it is where I am at. But when it is time to move on, it is time. I believe that the fact all these places are opening up are not a coincidence. I believe I am mean' to move. And I am ready.
I need everything, everything. Bedroom suite, living room suite. a kitchen table. All pots and pans and dishes and cutlery as well as all the kitchen gadgets that are required for a kitchen. This kitchen today was big with allot of counter space and cupboards. A den and my own washer and dryer.
I will look at the other places. I really need everything. And I need it all soon. As the first is coming up soon. Yes I will have to eat Novembers rent in Coquitlam. I feel this is what I have to do. I feel I am being guided into the next phase of my life. A new beginning. It is a wonderful feeling and I am just letting it happen. I pray all day. All the way into Vancouver, and to Richmond and then to White Rock.
105 kms of me praying. And I am not just asking for things for me, but for others as well. The one main thing is that I am getting hurt while doing this trip. It is painful with the bumps and quick stops with the bus and having to carry everything I carry for mom. My hip is getting really painful. I am having to take more and more pain killers. I am not happy about this fact. And I am falling more often. And tripping more often. What I bring for mom is very heavy.
I need to get help from someone. Maybe I should write Ellen, she loves to help people and I fit in to her category of need for a good reason.
I do not do this for myself, but I do everything for my mother. I do nothing for me. I go nowhere. I go for a tea with someone not very often. I go see mom and then I come home. And then the next day, I try to get things done in the morning, but I can't get much done. It takes me 2 hours to get my mind together to do anything. This is due to the fact that I get 4 hours of sleep. But I will do this without complaining. I love my mother.
I gave up on dating or having a relationship. I don't have the time and will not stop seeing mom at the times I see her. And I am to far to get things done at the hospital with the doctors. there is allot to do and speak with the doctors about mom's treatment plan.
I have to go now. I need sleep, and I know it will not happen for many hours yet.
I do need help please.
GOD Bless and good
Kris
