Hello again
Well I wrote a letter to my Zulfiya telling her that it is not a good idea to come. It was hard for me to do this. I don't know what would of happened. Whether she just visited or left to stay in Canada. I guess I will never find out now. I am very disappointed in this. Pushing the send button was difficult. Especially since I am very lonely right now. At this time.
Mom is not eating her dinner, as it is just bad hospital food. And I want so much to bring her dinner's every night.
I need to move to White Rock and get furniture. I wanted Zulfiya to come over here.
I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO AND I AM LOST. I NEED A HUGE MIRACLE.
I am going to bed now. I want to cry. I disappointed my mother and myself enough for today.
GOD Bless and good night
