Hello again
How dare you steal my mother's cross and chain. Stealing from a senior, with dementia. Does it make you feel good inside. I hope it is eating you up and making you completely uncomfortable.
So I have been thinking and feeling something different. I have never really felt lonely. People talk to me all day long. But this time I feel alone. Ever since mom wanted me to have Zulfiya come over. So I am not alone and won't be alone. Then it makes me think about her. I do miss are written words. It was something to look forward to. But more than that. I was getting to know someone and she me. We talked about what is going on with each other. Our likes and dislikes. About how are days are. Getting to know, more about each other than I previously have told anyone for a long time. I just wish I could be talking to her in person. But I have a serious trust issue. I don't trust. And since I have never met her, I don't trust her.
I don't get it. I have nothing so why not have her come. Oh yea, I don't have anything that is the reason. If I had my own place and it furnished. That would be a different thing.I need to move to White Rock and get my own space. I really need this space. I am tired of living with other people.
It is imperative that I live close to mom. It is imperative I have my own place, and furnished nicely. I need to be free from Coquitlam. It has been a curse for me for a long time now. To break free of a comfortable place and start anew. In a place that will serve a few purposes.
Be close to mom, get my business going, have the water right their, peace of mind, my own place, nice furniture, and the ability to bring mom over and then to have her on overnight visits.
Mom has been trying to hook me up for a long time. I know she does not want me to be without anyone after she is gone. Mom wants to dance with me at a wedding. She wants to see grand children from me. I would like, I think to do this. I don't know. I really don't know.
I think I have said I don't like to be touched, well I would like to be really hugged right now. This is to weird for me. It has bothered me when people want to hug me or when someone is to close to me and touching me on the bus. And I have lived with roommates for a while now and I am not lonely or alone.
The last week I have felt very alone. It seems ever since I told Zulfiya not to come. How can I have a beautiful women come over when I have nothing and can't even cook her dinner, or take her anywhere.
Mom wants to see her and meet her. And allot of people meet online and get married. It might have to do with getting to know each other through the written word. Telling each other about our, well everything.
I never want to disappoint mom. And it is really time I leave Coquitlam. I am done with Coquitlam. It has been a beautiful place to grow up in. But I am grown up now;. It is about time. And time for grown up decisions. And to move on to a new beginning and world.
Mom and I both want me in White Rock;. We need this to take place immediately. I still have time to write Zulfyia back and tell her to come. Her vacation is not for another 3 or 4 weeks. Gives me enough time to do all that is needed to have a proper home. And to have mom over for a visit before this.
GOD if you are to help me, this is the time. I have never felt like this before and mom is getting better. And mom wants things for me. This is too cool.
I know mom is not any where near as bad as they think. JUST STOP THE MEDICATION. And mom will get better.
I really am learning allot from mom and this journey.
GOD Bless and good night
Kris
Oh yea I am only home until 1pm PST if you call please leave a message. From where ever you are calling from. 604.552.0557 2846 Glen Drive Coquitlam BC Canada V3B-0A4 Kris Schmuland
I write this, as I have been getting calls from many different places and no messages. I know I don't know anyone their and no companies that I have contact with.
I really need every one's prayer's right now. I am so confused and I miss the letter's from my friend or even more. I never thought I had feelings for her, I guess I am wrong.
Please GOD help me out here.
AMEN
