Hello again
I can say this. I can no longer bend my neck to read anything. I get an instant headache. I can't hold my arms up to read with my head straight on. I get an instant headache and my back and shoulders kills me.
GREAT! isn't it. On top of not having a bus pass. I was able to get the funds for the phone. So that is working again.
I now have 20 resumes out there, as of today. I need a bus pass and phone to get a job. Now one thing is behind me, I can get working or...................
I did get to see the advocate today. Good news there.
Well not all bad, but I am in serious pain. Besides everything else that is wrong with me. I have not heard anything back yet about my cancer testing from this week. No news is good news they tell me. Whoever they are.
I am still not sleeping, Just getting by on a few hours of sleep each night. I don't want to take anything to help me sleep, if I do, I won't be able to get up in the morning to get anything done. So I am just walking around in a daze........ It is not that bad, as people are smiling at me I think.
So here I am. I need to get the funds together for a bus pass, because at a certain point, they just don't offer the monthly pass anymore. Then it becomes very expensive.
So I walk alone again. No friends anymore. I had nothing to do with this. OK, maybe because I am broke and have nothing at Christmas time.So everyone thinks I am a downer.. Depressing etc......
I feel for them.. But to bad they feel this way.
The worse part is I am completely alone now. Before I was taking care of mo and always had someone to speak with. Now no one at all.
This is a bad time of the year to become completely alone
And it hurts that I have no one. It may sound selfish, but this year I would like a Christmas present. I have not had a Christmas present in over 15 years. A book, would be nice. None fiction about GOD. It didn't matter before because I had mom to take care of and just making her smile at Christmas time, decorating her room and making mom a Christmas dinner was good enough for me. Actually, that is all I ever needed. Just to make mom's Christmas and everyday the best it could be.
Now mom has passed away and I am truly alone. Truly alone.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
https://www.gofundme.com/anewmesmile
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