Hello again
Well as the days go by, the pain and stiffness are getting worse. It is becoming more and more difficult to move my neck. Walking is hard as my lower legs feel the pain. They become numb after a while. So I can only walk so far, not as far as I could before, and that wasn't that far at all, before having to take a break.
This is the first time, maybe the second time I have written since the bus accident. And my shoulders and back are already hurting me. I just started to type this out. I wish I still had my back brace. I need it to sit up properly.
So anyways, since I don't sleep much anymore. With the pain of my teeth, which by the way, has come back again. And the pain of this accident, I decided to go to church today. The first time I have gone to church in many years. I rather enjoyed the service. Very pleasant. I needed the sermon today. It was spot on.......I just wish I could get my sleep pattern back together. Sleeping at night. Not staying awake all night long and getting hardly any sleep during the week.
The one thing that I didn't like about the service today, was that it is the start of Advant. And I am not liking Christmas this year at all. I am alone and lonely. I have no one to even speak with. One set of friends, a couple. So they are just getting by themselves. And have their own set of problems. They don't want to hear about my problems.
I would already have most of the Christmas decorations up at mom's, by now. Now they sit in boxes. I don't even want to set up any decorations. Not the same anymore. Why would I do this. I am struggling and I am not making it in this life. I thought I had most things going right,but that lasted as long as a pony ride. Which, being my size, doesn't last. Doesn't even get started.
Yes others are struggling as well, yet I feel that I am all alone. OK I am alone. Doesn't sit well, especially when, once church was finished, I had nothing to do, no where to go. Except if I wanted to just ride the bus. This I did. To know where and back.
I really miss mom, I miss decorating for her and seeing the smile on her face.
I ask again for your assistance. With prayer, emotionally, financially
I need to get my teeth fixed as soon as possible and mom's anniversary is coming up soon. A memorial service is in order
https://www.gofundme.com/krisschmuland
https://www.gofundme.com/anewmesmile
GOD bless you and good night
Kris Schmuland
