Hello again
I had a good day yesterday for a change, but it didn't last that long. Really. I spent the afternoon, in a meeting with a rep from the Seniors Advocacy Centre. I had stopped in there previously to request a manual and discussed how I might get involved. I needed to come back to pick up the manual and discuss getting involved. My meeting was for 1:30 and when I left, I checked the time and it was 3:45. Wow, a good meeting.
Anyways, we had a productive meeting and she suggested how I might get involved. It turns out they have group workshops. On four different subjects. And this is how I might get involved, by putting on some of these workshops. I would attend a few of them and then discuss these with the director and if I would like to present any of these, I would be trained and then volunteer to present these workshops.
You see, I spend over a dozen years developing a skill set. A skill set that I would like to use to further benefit other families. As I advocated for my mother. The skills that I developed over the years has value. And this can be used to help other's
I felt very good about this. And thought this could turn into a paid position. I might not be with the Seniors Centre, but with a different organization.
Yet my cousin, who contacted me today, doesn't see this as any good. It doesn't pay the bills, it is a wasted of your time. But being a dishwasher is not a waste of my time. Really.
I developed skills,that not many have developed.
Yet, once again, no one see's this as having a benefit. Helping other's has no benefit. Really. Doing for others as we are suppose to do, has no benefit.
Just as she didn't see my taking care of and looking after my mother as a job or having any value to anyone.
It had tremendous value to my mother. If it were not for me, my mother would of been alone. Always. She would not of had nice, clean clothing, her own sheets, pillows and duvet. Or fresh meals each day. Plus all of the other things I did for her.
But the most important part of looking after my mother, was just holding her hand. This mom just loved. It was the most most important part of her day. She knew I would be there and would not let go of her hand.
She get rude on the phone and says to me, Oh no I might loose your friendship. I hung up on her, right then and there. She is not my friend. Strangers are better friends than that...........
Once again, I don't care if my family ;likes me or wants to know me. OH WELL
I was in a good mood, things might look good for me, but here, a member of my family who thinks what I did for mom was not a job or of any benefit to anyone.
She or any member of my family could never do what I did. PERIOD!
So I just turned my phone off and am just pissed off.
Got to go
I am out of here.
Kris Schmuland
