Hello again
I am frustrated today. All I want to is to get every photo of mom printed out. They are all on my phone. And do you think it is just that easy to hook the phone up to my computer and view all the photos and transfer them to the London Drugs site. No, not at all. It keeps bringing me to the sony site and I can't find what app it is to view my photos.
I am just not getting it today. Maybe tomorrow I will get it. I was at the store and it was going to be one photo at a time. And I have at least 200 photo's of mom.
Tomorrow is another day.
I am trying to get things started, but I am becoming over whelmed by everything I need to do I need a new doctor to help me out, so I can get better or at least get some help to be able to get some closure. I know what it is going to take, but I just can't raise the money for it.
And someone said to me lately, you have so many followers, you should be able to get allot of support.
I don't think so. People really don't want to help. Unless it is some big disaster. Not to help the little guy give his mother a memorial service.
This is why I don't really like people. They let you down. They don't live up to what everyone says. People are good, and helpful. Not true.
So that is why I do things myself and I don't want to get to know anyone. Or have any friends. I would rather be alone than be disappointed with people. It has always been this way.
People do not help others. Unless there is something in it for them. Period.
I have only asked for all to donate the amount of a price of coffee.
So I am not only grieving now, I am stuck in a rut and I am in a place that is not good for me. I made a huge mistake moving to this place in White Rock.
Basically I was lied to from the start. I pay for things I don't get. And I have to put up with all the smoke. And not just cigarettes. I don't do anything, and I don't want to be around it. On top of all the BS.
So now I need to find a place again. It will be in White Rock.
It was a day of extreme grieving. I am looking at all the photo's of mom, while trying to download them.
It is not a good day. I am having anxiety issues right now.
Got to go and eat.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland.
