Hello again
It was a WoW day as it was so nice out today. Record broken in White Rock.
I left very early today, so I could get out to White Rock and pick up mom`s clothing that was be adapted. I was to get it yesterday. I left early, the bus was late, very late and then road construction, so by the time I arrived in White Rock, it was to late to do anything. I had enough time to just get down to mom`s after getting her some dinner.
But when I arrived at the seamstress`s today, she was closed and only open a few hours tomorrow. Which I can`t make. I had a doctors appointment to get the results of my CT scan on my brain. Nothing wrong with it. No lesions or tumors.
Well I was able to get to mom`s with enough time to speak with the manager about the TV issue. Of course the same old line. We will look into it. I don`t care it has to be moved. It is intrusive to mom.
Mom was down by the window, and when she heard my voice, I saw her hand go out. And that beautiful smile was on her face.
I took her to her room and did the usual, gave her drinks, a snack and went and warmed up her dinner. I made her a nice pasta dinner, with a chicken kabob. The chicken was a little to tough for her to chew, so she had the meat portion of the served dinner and the pasta.
It is Friday, another day in which I wash and style her hair. Down to the tub room after dinner. I put the music on. On my phone. This new phone has two speakers so it sound better than the old one. I still carry the old phone with me. It has mom`s music on it, but I have put all of the music from that phone onto the new phone, plus ++++ And it sounds better.
You know, by the time I have finished washing and styling her hair, mom is so relaxed that she is almost asleep. Heck mom started falling asleep right after dinner. Holding my hand, full. Me singing to her. This is what I do for her. I sing to her allot. I hold her hand as much as I can. This is why she doesn`t want to let go.
It is a wonderful and beautiful thing. No amount of words to describe it. Now we wait for the girl to come in and put mom to bed. She was late again tonight. Not good for mom.
Well after mom was in bed it was the usual spa treatment. No neck massage for a few days now. Her neck has been kinked, and she has been leaning her head the opposite direction. But everything else. Then the grabbing of my hand and pulling it close to her.
I stayed with her later tonight, as her roommate was up, with the lights on, TV up loud. So I just stayed with her until she fell asleep. Holding my hand. When she is asleep, her hand loosens up. I know it is time to go. I packed and off I went.
Now, I am coming to grips with this diagnosis of Parkinson`s disease. Don`t want to accept it. But I have to. This diagnosis, is making me realize again how frail life is. Time to do more for mom and enjoy my visits with mom even more. Be more productive.
I also am going to start dong things that I have put off. One being to write a letter to the one I lost. Who moved back east. I have her address and phone number, but I want to write her. Okay, I have already written the letter. On my computer and printed it out. Now to write it out and send it off.
All I can do is send it. If something happens because of doing this great. We really enjoyed our time together. We didn`t spend much time apart, when she was here. I spoke with her for a few years after she left. She would of come back if I went and got her. I even asked her to marry me on the phone and she did say yes.
10 years has passed since we last spoke. If it is her. I mean the women I know, at the address I have. I don`t know. Everything is in her name. So I don`t know if she is married or not. Kids who knows, who cares.
I am just going to try. That is all I can do. I am nothing but a good person. I can`t provide for her. I just would like to get in touch and maybe exchange a few letters.
I know what is going to happen with this disease, but it could take a very long time for that to happen. But I need to live life to the fullest. So my plan this weekend is to write that letter, cursively, and mail it off.
I am going now, I have so much TV to watch, which I have downloaded. I am behind. All the shows are ending for the summer break, so I have lots of time to catch up.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
