Hello again
Today mom was bright, wide awake and extremely happy to see me. Huge smile on her face. She had her hair done today, she looked very good. Nicely dressed, for a change. But the only problem is they tend to put mom in the same outfits, many times a week. I am now bringing these outfits home and bringing them back at a later date.
Didn't get a chance to speak with the manager, but tomorrow.
And so mom was awake and she was very hungry. Being tired the way she was, she didn't eat as much as normal. Because she was tired so mom just chewed and chewed her food. And she was full from just chewing so much.
As soon as mom and I went to her room, mom motioned at me to let me know she was hungry. I gave her something to drink, but it was something to eat is what she wanted. I had banana's, which she ate two of. Some tomatoes and a little bit of chocolate. This is before I feed mom her dinner. Oh yea I had some crackers and she ate some of them as well.
Her dinner was sweet and sour meatballs and honey roasted vegetables. Plus her avocado. And I feed her some more crackers with butter and cheese, plus some avocado on top of them. And mom ate and ate tonight. I was happy about this. A very good appetite tonight.
We finished before the served dinner was even brought in to the room. Again we turned it down. Mom was done and on to dessert. and this we finished early. I quickly changed mom and got a blanket on her, sat down beside her and turned the music on. Mom knew we were waiting for the staff to come in and change her and get her into bed. We just sat there and listened to music. I sang, mom sang, we listened. I held her hand.
And afterward, I gave mom her nightly spa treatment. Tonight she didn't want the neck massage, just he regular spa treatment. After I had allot of time to just be with her, holding her hand. Having our nightly conversation. Then it was time for her to go to sleep. She lets me know. I sang our good night song to her, gave her a kiss goodnight. Lowered her bed, put the mats around her bed.
Then I tucked her in, fixed her pillow and said our goodnight.
I left.
Tonight, on my journey home. I ended up waiting for over an hour. Yes waiting for the buses. I arrived close to my home. A 10 to 15 minute drive, and waited for over half and hour for a bus. I arrived at 9:30 and didn't get home until after 10:30. Most of my time traveling to and from mom's is spent waiting for buses or trains.
I am done. I absolutely hate coming back here at night. I hate being here and can't wait to leave the next day. I won't even speak with anyone here anymore. The landlord is crazy. I am just pissed off and very angry. Mostly because of my diagnosis. I might guess.
Still haven't excepted it. I still haven't told anyone. And if I did, they wouldn't give a crap anyways. See my regular doctor tomorrow. Get the results from the second CT scan of my brain. I really don't think much has changed since the last one a few months ago.
And I guess we will have to come up with some kind of plan for my disease.
I am done with being this....................................
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher W.A. Schmuland
