Hello again
So it is only 6 days left until Christmas. And I have no funds for presents for mom. I used my saving to get mom her leg rests. And I thought I might be able to get a refund quickly if I submitted it online. No, it takes the same amount of time. So it will be a few months until I see anything.
This sucks big time. Of course mom needed the leg rests so I needed to do what was necessary to make mom comfortable. But I have nothing for mom for Christmas. OK nothing for me as well. But it is more important for me to get mom something. I always go without at Christmas and I am use to it. So not important. Only mom is important.
And I am not feeling good right now, about anything. This is really bothering me. I need to get Christmas presents for mom. Maybe go and steal them. That is an option. No it is not. But I am desperate. I saved all year for this. I wish the staff would of mentioned this earlier in the fall, so at least I would have a refund by now.
And the points I am suppose to get for the leg rests, are not on my card yet. And that is $105.00 worth of free merchandise.
So I am screwed. This is why I am so depressed this year. More so than other years. I tried to do the right thing. I took funds that I needed to survive, eat, clothing etc...., and put it aside so I can give mom a great Christmas.
Things happen, and mom needed the leg rests. But I need to get mom something.
Anyways. I am frustrated that the staff don't think mom is cognitive enough to know what is going on. It is strokes that took her speech away and use of her left arm and hand. Not dementia.
There is this one care aid, who puts mom with the ladies so at least mom can be part of the conversation. Even it she can't reply to them . But I am sure mom does her best to try to say something. I like this about this care aid. But her last day is on Friday. She has just been replacing someone while they were on vacation. I will miss her.
So mom was in a great mood today, and ate very well. It was the day I was to wash her hair, but I needed to be downtown again today and I arrived to late to wash her hair before dinner and well, after dinner mom was full and tired. So off to bed she went. Since I am no longer able to put her to bed, I get her changed in her chair and brush her teeth. And after the care aid puts her to bed I complete her spa treatment. And tonight she wanted the full treatment. Well this completely relaxed her.
Afterwards I just held her hand and mom fell deeply asleep. She was snoring when I sang her good night song to her. But she did acknowledge me when I was leaving and told me she loved me.
I am stressed and depressed. So I am going to end this blog for the night.
Please pray that I am able to do something for mom. There is a few days left
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
