Hello again
Today I had to pay for my phone. I have to have a phone for contact with the home mom is in. I put the funds aside. But I needed to change my plan and cancel the data. I couldn't afford the extra $20.00 A shame is I do say so myself
My smart phone is no longer a smart phone. Just a phone now.
I saw my doctor today concerning my depression. Back on anti depressants I go. He is going to work with me to try to get me back to normal. Yes I don't feel normal. I am in a huge rut.
But no one gives a crap anyways.
It is almost Christmas and I have nothing. Nothing for mom. It really pisses me off. I have done what was needed for mom. Getting her the leg rests she needs. To keep her legs from just hanging in the air. And I can't even get a little help from anyone to do something nice for my ailing mother. A person who has done so much for others and is not getting the respect she deserves.
I make nothing and have nothing, but I managed to put something aside, which I tried to save for Christmas, but the funds were needed else where and was used to better my mothers life. At least I did that.
I am use to not having a Christmas dinner or gifts. But mom deserves better. I am going to start to save again for next year. But I am worried about this year. OK there are 5 days left and who knows what could happen.
Mom was very tired today. And I got to her place late. As I was at the doctors office and we all know that you get their and wait. Which I did. What little money I have left is for mom's fruit and dinners. It can't be spent on presents. If I did that, there would be no fruit for the week. So no.
She ate well, for being tired. Even though she was tired I managed to get her hair washed. And she loved this. And you know the rest. Get her changed, into bed and the spa treatment. Tonight the nurse gave mom her nightly medicine early, so it was just a matter of holding her hand while she fell asleep. And this she did. This is why I want to be living in White Rock. To stay latter and not have to worry about a 3 hour trip home.
Midnight again, so I am very tired and need to just relax. Peanut butter sandwich's for me, for dinner.
GOD bless and good night
Merry Christmas to all
