Hello again
It is not about me. Mom is feeling depressed. I haven't changed. So it is not about me.
It is Christmas time and mom is upset that she can't give her daughters something for Christmas. I suggested to the PGT just something for Christmas stockings. I would, but I have nothing.
So tonight I think I hurt mom's feelings. I mentioned to her that every time she holds my hand she starts to falls asleep. She pushed my hand away and was very quit the rest of the night, and just looked at me, the rest of the night with a, well, not pleased look.
It was Sushi night, and mom ate everything plus some of what was served.
But mom was very tired. I just got her ready for bed. And gave her a quick spa treatment. She didn't even want her feet done, but I did them anyways. She didn't even want to listen to Christmas music. No, not at all. I tried. Just her normal jazz.
This time of the year is emotional for me. Seeing mom like this, not having family around. As mom would throw the Christmas dinners for the family. And they are just ignoring her. Such a shame. It makes it hard for mom. And for me watching mom go through this. Such a shame.
It is for mom that I am trying to do everything. To at least make each and every Christmas as special as I can, so she knows she is loved.
Please help make this happen. If not for me, but for my mother.
I have allot of things still to do before I go to bed. So I have to say good night.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
