Hello again
Well the manager seemed to avoid me today, about our conversation of last week. I expected as much. I knew nothing would transpire from that conversation. This is why I have called the complaint department
So I made mom a beautiful dinner tonight. The roommate will take my things and throw them out. But not stuff for mom. So I had some things in the freezer which I use to make mom a pasta dinner. I call it Pasta Rizolli. Mom ate almost the entire plate, which was very large. It is great that she has such a good appetite.
I love that mom has dry wit and is sarcastic, still. You need a mind that is alert to be sarcastic.
I got her ready for bed and the care aid came in. This is one of the one's I like. OK I like most of them.
Mom is doing well,
It is the most depressing time of the year for me and all the shops with the Christmas music and all the decorations, is driving me crazy. It is only November and.......
I am starting to bring Christmas decorations out to mom's. Yes by bus. I have done this for years now. So nothing new for me.
I just wish I can do more for mom. Especially at Christmas time. I all ready know, I won't have anything. I just wish.....................................................
It would be nice if something really wonderful would happen this year for a change.
It is mom whom keeps a smile on my face. Because I don't want to be here. And I don't want to be here on Christmas day, well after I visit mom and come home to be alone again. For another holiday. You know Thanksgiving and the other holidays I don't care if I am alone. But Christmas, it is a different thing.
Anyways. I did moms spa treatment and just sang to her, held her hand and enjoyed the smile she had on her face while she held my hand, while falling asleep. She did, however, have to be woken up to be given her nightly medication, but tried to go back to sleep after wards. I am sure mom fell asleep after I left. Right away.
I finally wrote the newspaper about the story of a guy giving up crack for his dog. And how I gave up my alcohol and pot addiction to take care of mom and dad. Which I never could of if I was still drinking. And I lost the girl of my dreams.
As you can tell, I am not over her yet. I guess I would need to get closure to move on. Hell, as stated, she is probable married with children now. So I should suck it up and move on.
But I have no desire to date anyone, at all. I am just wanting to move closer to mom, so I don't feel so bad that I have to leave so early. Living closer means I can be their more often and stay later.
It is late again and time to go.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher W. A. Schmuland
I have chosen a life of servitude, looking after my mother
But would like some help.
