Hello again
Excuse me for not writing last night, at least I don't think I did, but the pain was so great from the day of carrying things out to White Rock and back. I have not been able to stand up straight. I just needed to go to bed. I had to take extra pain killers to be able to survive the day.
But today, I can stand up straight, but I can't bend over. Hurts to much. But getting better. People have told me I should go to the doctor and everything else. Yet no matter if I go to the doctor or not, the pain will still be there and it will go away in a few days or so. Just the way it is.
I do think I need to speak with my doctor about this, as it is twice in the last two months, that I through my back out from the simplest things
When I arrived today, mom was so tired, that when we went to her room to get the shampoo and gel, to wash her hair. And to wipe her mouth and eyes. When they give her medication they don't wipe her mouth. And the bright lights bother her eyes and mom forms sleet in them. This is how they look after the residents. NOT. Mom just pointed to her bed. She wanted to go to bed right then and there. But mom needed to eat.
Anyways, I didn't wash her hair yesterday, as I do, on Wednesdays. So no matter how much I hurt, I needed to get this done for mom. It makes her feel so much better. When I was finished, mom felt so much better.
Well mom was sleep eating again tonight. That tired.
I spoke with the Manager and she told me the same old same old. We can't do anything at the moment. We had a meeting about this. Other's want to move as well. Have to wait until the new year. Yadda, Yadda, Yadda!
I brought mom sushi this evening and she normally loves this and eats it all. When mom is this tired, it is hard for her to chew. OK, it takes her a long time to chew things. What she ate was the meal they served. Easy to swallow. She had a few pieces of the sushi, plus this 7 layer dip I have for her, with cracker chips. And her papaya. So really mom ate a whole lot, tonight.
I got her changed for bed, then the staff came in and put her to bed and changed her diaper. (Pad) as they like to call it. I got her spa treatment done. With great pain, though. And lowered the bed, so I could sit in a chair while I held her hand.
It is funny. When mom grabs my hand, her eyes close and as soon as I let go, her eyes open. Just mentioning this.
It still is a great feeling inside to know mom trusts me this much to let me feed her, with her eyes closed and to want me to just hold her hand while she falls off to sleep. Nothing can compare to this. Nothing at all. I am the luckiest person to be able to care for her like I do.
Anyways it is late again. Time to go. Once again, I am not hungry.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher W.A. Schmuland
I have chosen a life of servitude, looking after my mother
