Hello again
The worst thing about being an alcoholic during my 30's, I did not drink or smoke pot through out my 20's. I knew I had a problem with pot and booze in my teens. Oh where was I, Oh yea, The worst thing is I did/ was not able to meet someone special, maybe I did and I let her go. I was in love and did let her go. Being an alcoholic and pot head. She did not want to stick around. To meet that someone special, get to know each other, get married, have a family and settle down. buy a home etc..............................................
Now that I am 50 I am not attracted to the women my age. I still have hopes of have children. I would be a great father. I know it and everyone else knows it. But I am to screwed up. I don't have it together. And if I want someone younger, to be attracted to me, I need money. This I don't have.
I have just been thinking about his lately. If this did happen, I would not be able to do what I do for my mother. And I am happy that I get to do this, take care of her. It would of been nice to be able to have both. But I am happy anyways.
OK, I am pissed off that I can't find a place in White Rock, that I can afford. I am pissed off that my add's have had no responses. I explained my circumstances, but no one give a shit about someone else but themselves.
No one gives a crap that the one thing I want to do in my life is to look after my mother and by being closer to her I can help her out even more. But no one wants to give someone a break in this world.
The world is full of extremely selfish individuals. Absolutely full. Everyone tells others that they help other's but it is not even close to the truth. Just like most people who go to church. Good one day a week and then they are there true self's the rest of the week. We call them Sunday Christians.
Enough of me now.
So far the staff putting mom to bed is actually working out better. They are putting her to bed around 6 PM and changing her at the same time. Thus leaving allot of time for me to do what is needed. Instead of me putting her to bed right after dinner and then waiting for an hour for the staff to change her. We will leave it this way, and see how it goes. So far so good.
But the roommate is starting to become even more troubled. Now she is playing with the bed. Constantly raising it up and down. Talking away to her delusions. Calling the nurses all the time. The lights on, the TV extremely loud.
Mom is not getting the rest she needs or deserves!
But mom is eating very well and allot. Well I am feeding her nutritious meals. Yet she is not regular. Which is starting to concern me.
I washed her hair today, after dinner, got her ready for bed, read to her for a few minutes. Not very long.
I have ordered mom's elevating leg rests. I can't wait until she gets them. It will provide so much more support for her. So her legs are not just hanging there in mid air. But they are expensive. It is OK, mom's extended health care will cover it. Only problem, it is going to take a week to two weeks for them to get here. Apparently they have to come from the other side of the world. LOL!
But mom is healthy and I am very happy about this. I do need to speak with her doctor. That is a chore unto it's self.
There is a seminar on stroke victims and their caregivers next week and I plan on attending this to speak with a doctor or someone who knows something about it.
Getting late again, this time change is getting hard to get use to.
So GOD bless and good night.
I am going to enter another contest to see if I can win something. GOD knows that I have entered enough of them. But I will keep on with it.
Kristopher W. A. Schmuland
