Hello again
So over the last few days I have packed just about everything in my room, emptied out all the drawers in the dresser, night stands and desk. Except for the few things that I use daily. Plus packed the closet, except for the the few clothes I wear daily.
I completely cleaned the room. So now I just have to find a place. No problem one states. Right. This is the biggest problem I face. Finding an affordable place for myself. I am even looking at shared accommodations. But if I can get a place on my own, this is what prefer. But I will accept a shared accommodation for now.
Now to find said place.
There is a cold going around the home that mom is in and I am trying to get an extra Vega One supplement to use in her smoothies. As I did before, but the PGT is being, well you all know by now. I asked last Sunday and no response from them for a few days, so I write again and again. To find out what is going on. Finally on Thursday I spoke with them and what I gathered from our conversation was there would be a cheque for the amount of the supplement ready for Friday. But I get down their and nothing and the guy tells me he didn't get around to it. It is mom who is suffering. I want this so mom will not get a cold. He was being obstinate about it as well.. I will get around to it. I won't give you a date, he tells me. Didn't you get that from our conversation. Well actually I didn't, your tone was cooperative.
So mom is tired, these days. The roommate is delusional again and it is getting worse and the staff do nothing about it. Her TV is extremely loud and annoying.
AGAIN MOM LIKES QUIT
I made mom an omelet and toast. She ate this and some of the dinner served to her. Which I have been going and getting. Or it sits there and we are forgotten, or it is getting cold. So now I am doing everything once I arrive.
Time to really get angry. OK I am there already. With not finding a place, and my belief in GOD is not anywhere what it use to be.
Nothing is nothing and this is what I have. And this is not fair to mom. I do my best and I will make mom great dinners before I make these for myself. And I like it this way. I really don't like to cook for myself anyways. I prefer to cook for someone else. It is actually boring cooking for just me.
Mom was changed early this evening, so I was able to hold her hand until she fell asleep. Completely asleep. Her hand relaxed. As mom holds on very tightly until she falls asleep. I don't mind a bit.
I just sang to her and kissed her goodnight.
I don't know what I will do for dinner for her tomorrow.
I need to go now, I am tired as well. The bus takes it's toll on me as well.
I am asking again for your prayers.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmulano
