Hello again
Today was mom's 84 th Birthday.
My sister's actually showed up for this on the day. It is amazing, but I am glad for mom. She was happy that they came. And that is all that matters, is mom's happiness.
I really don't care at all, about them. But I do care that they come to visit with their mother. It doesn't affect me, but it affects mom.
Last night when I got home, I made her Birthday dinner. Took a few hours, but mom loved it. I had a cake mix, which I made as well. I brought her flowers and a card. I will pick up some clothing, as I need to anyways.
While putting mom to bed, I needed to lift her up and adjust her. Well there was this new care aid, and when she walked in, she told me that she is going to put mom to bed now and for me to leave. I simply said to her that I put mom to bed, no one has done this since mom has been here. She gave me this dirty look. So this care aid upset me a bit. Then I went back to adjusting mom, but I forgot to put the brake on for the wheelchair and the chair went flying back. I had mom, but I tripped over the chair and had to make sure mom didn't go crashing to the floor. In the process of doing this, I must of banged my leg on the chair. Because of this I had to put mom down on the floor. She didn't fall, or hurt herself. I just had to place her on the floor while I got my balance.
The nurse came in and asked why is their blood everywhere. I freaked out. I thought something happened to mom. As it turned out I was bleeding from my leg and lots of blood at that. The lower part of my right jean was soaked in blood, my sock and runner as well.
Everyone is freaking out about this and all I wanted to know if anything was wrong with mom. Mom was and is fine. This care aid was giving me more dirty looks and I just said this is your fault, I have been looking after my mother longer than you have been a care aid and I am here every single day of the week and have been for years and years. I know what my mother wants and likes. So you need to stop giving me dirty looks. If you did not do this, I would of not forgotten to put the brake on.
Mom was worried about me as well, I am fine, I told her. this is not the first time I cut myself and it won't be the last. I was only concerned about mom.
I finished mom's spa treatment and held her hand while she fell asleep. With a smile on her face. I sang to her and she sung with me. I stayed as long as I could.
As soon as I got home, I soaked my jeans in cold water and now they are in the washer. I will hand dry them, in case the soaking didn't get rid of all the blood. So I can do it again, without it setting.
OK I am very tired. I was up until 4 AM making mom's dinner and then relax a bit. And up at 10, so I could get going by 1 PM.
I just wanted to get their early to spend more time with mom.
I just want to sleep, I am not even hungry. It doesn't matter anyways.
Besides all of this, mom had a good Birthday today.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
