Hello again
It seems that mom is or has not been eating her lunch. And that I am the only one who can get mom to eat. I don't try to force her to eat. And this can pose a real problem. Considering I am 3 hours away.
If something is not done and mom continues to not eat properly. I am worried and afraid that this could be the last year. Mary is already getting to thin. From the last few weeks. I see it in her neck and face as well as her wrists.
It took them weeks to tell me that she is not eating properly.
The only way to solve this is for me to be very close to her and go and feed her lunch as well as dinner.
I looked at a place today. It was about a 15 minute walk from the hospital. The daughter in law sent me the add and the rent is $500. per month. OK I thought. Great I can afford this.
Then, while I was their, I was informed that utilities are extra. At $100. per month and if I want cable and internet, it is another $60.00 extra.
Now a $500.00 a month rent is $660.00 per month. There is a 1 bdrm apartment a block away from mom's home. And that is $740. with a $50. discount per month if I sign a one year lease. Not a problem, I don't plan on going anywhere.
Now I just need to find the extra funds I need. I don't care if I have cable, I don't have a TV anyways, or eat all the time. I just need the internet
As mentioned in previous blogs. I don't even need furniture right away. I have a bedroom suite. Good enough. I don't even care if I get hearing aids.I would rather use that money, if I can get it, to be closer to mom and do the things needed to get her to eat. I can learn to sign. I understand mom very well without even speaking. Mom does not speak clearly. Because of her stroke.
I am very, very worried. OK I am more than worried. I am freaking out. I am pissed off and want to just scream at anyone who even bother's me. I am giving people dirty looks for just brushing up against me, or sitting to close to me on the bus. I am not sleeping well.
Mom needs me now more than ever. I need to be in White Rock.
I will continue to pray on this, but so far, nothing. I am sure GOD knows what is going on. And the fact mom needs me to be closer to her.
I can't take this drunk chick roommate anymore She is just annoying and it is impossible to even speak with her. She doesn't understand anything. She is in my face, trying to control everything.
She controls her boyfriend and is trying this crap on me. Never going to work. I will tell her where to go, very fast. Especially now, that this is going on with mom.
I really need some serious help right now.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
