Hello again
My mother has a terminal disease, this disease is Alzheimer's. There is no cure. Our loved one's will pass away from this disease. Their minds will forget how to do everything. Even forget how to work their hearts.
I have seen my mother go through many changes over the years. I was reminded of one of them this evening. How mom forgot how to use a phone.
When mom moved into her first seniors home. I got her a phone. But it was a phone with large buttons and 3 buttons on the top for direct dialing. This was OK at first and then once she moved into another home. Mom was forgetting how to even use these buttons. Then mom forgot how to answer the phone its self. She would pick the receiver up, but not put it to her ear. I would yell into the phone for mom to put the phone to her ear.
I even tried to teach her. But to no avail. She simply forgot how to operate a phone. Again I remember this tonight, while having a conversation about another person with Dementia/Alzheimer's. She could speak still at this point. After this she had the stroke which took her speech away. A few years later, she was not able to walk anymore and now is completely dependent on others for all her needs.
This was just a brief synapses of her last several years. I wasn't until mom moved to Coquitlam that I started to write this blog. OK not this one. I was on WordPress until they shut me down due to a possible law suit. From Riverview Hospital. So I started this one on Blogger I have all the one's from WordPress but have not published them on Blogger. I will though.
So again the last few days, others have been saying that I will be blessed for what I am doing. Looking after mom. So once again, I say to these individuals and to GOD, I don't want to be blessed later on. I need to be blessed at this time. I mean NOW. I want to be blessed now, so I can move to White Rock, buy a van and have a wheel chair lift installed. Get my own place to have mom over. And also to have mom's aunt over for dinners or a lunch. She lives close by mom. But mom's aunts family does not even bring her to visit mom. They live 4 blocks apart. They drive, I don't. Otherwise I would pick up mom's aunt, my great aunt.
I need to be blessed now. I can't stand living here anymore. I hate living with Alcoholics. Especially a women Alcoholic. I don't drink or do drugs and I have nothing to say to either of the roommates. Nothing at all. And it is a waste of my time talking to either of them.
I have to live in my room. Which is nuts. I don't know what it is like to just relax in a living room. I am to old to live like this.
What I will say is this. I do complain allot about other things. As in not eating or having clothing that fits. Living closer to mom. Etc.......
But I do not and have not complained about looking after mom. I will never complain about this. I love my mother and I love what I do for her.
This is my life and is what I do for a job. And I love every minute of it. I would not have it any other way. Simple.
This is the most important thing I have ever done and will do and am doing. OK my education is up there, but know where close to this.
There is so much that I am learning. It is amazing. I love my mother more and more each and everyday. I actual care for someone else. That is important.
So being blessed would be a nice thing. But being blessed now. So I can do so much more for her.
Mom deserves this and every other thing I can do for her. To have the best possible life she can have.
I need to go now.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
