Hello again
It has been since Monday that mom had her tooth removed. And today she was not that hungry. The tooth bothered her somewhat and because of the medication, that was given to her, she is, well, constipated. Which makes mom not very hungry. She did eat some of her dinner, as well as only half of a papaya. Which she normally eats a whole one. But she did enjoy her Lindt chocolates.
I promised her I would wash her hair and this is what we did right after dinner. Then off to bed we went. While washing her hair I got her shirt and sweater wet. While changing her I noticed a smell. Mom needed to be washed very well. So after I got her into bed, I washed her back. This is something I am going to do from now on. Everyday. As well as her arms, legs and face. I will leave the rest up to the care aid to do. I will be instructing them on this detail tomorrow. OK today. since it is after 12:00
Mom was very happy to see me today. I love it when she runs her hand over my face. It is a great feeling. A connection. Love! She loves to hold my hand and that is a great thing as well.
Today I was able to get a family Doctor. For the first time in years. Out in White Rock of course. But I need to live their to continue to see this Doctor.
I have serious balance issues. I cannot hold anything in my right hand, I am dropping things all the time as of late. I am falling over to my right quit a bit in the last while. NOT GOOD. The doctor needs to do some serious work ups on me. I am smelling toast all the time. Where no toast is being made.
Signs of a stroke. He needs to check this out.
But anyways. The suite I mentioned. I have talked the owner into $500.00 per month. For 6 months or until I get my disability, then I will pay 750.00 per month. The actual cost of the suite is $700.00 But we spoke and I agreed to the extra $50.00 a month until the cost is made up. The $200.00 that I am getting a break on. So I will pay the extra $50.00 until we have balanced it out.
Now the problem is, and it is a very large problem. I HAVE NOTHING. Not even a bed. It is a one bedroom suite, all utilities included. And I will be moving in to an empty place. No furniture( bedroom or living room), no TV, stereo, dishes, cutlery, pots and pans or even a kitchen table and chairs. I have my clothing, a good set of knives, kitchen utensils. One frying pan. An omelet pan. And some storage containers. Yes my computer and printers.
This place is a 20 minute walk from the hospital, two blocks to the bus stop. 15 - 20 minute walk to a few different grocery stores. And 15 minutes to three churches. My mother's roommates daughter goes to one of the churches that I was interested in attending. She tells me it is a good church.
Don't get me wrong. I like my mother's roommate. It is just that she likes to watch TV all night long, has the light on as well. And talks to herself as well. Part of the Dementia.
Now I really don't know what to do. I now have a Doctor in White Rock. I transferred my prescriptions out to the Shopper Drug Mart in White Rock. I have a nice place that is close to what I need.
But, the big But. I need everything and have nothing. I don't even have funds to purchase said items. Nor to even eat.
When you move into a place, one not only needs the furniture, but all of the sundry products as well. Ketchup, Miracle Whip, mustard, flour, sugar, salt etc...... etc...................... and I have none of it and need all of it.
Yes I am a pain in the ass. But I have done all of this leg work, I pray to GOD all the time.
GOD has been keeping mom healthy. I don't pray allot for myself. But even if I do, nothing seems to happen. It is as if I am a very big joke in GOD's eyes. I am a person to have fun with.
I suffer all the time. I am in pain 24/7 365. I don't complain about it. I just want mom to be healthy. I put up with it.
I just wish for a miracle for myself, once in a while. OK just once.
But I digress, I need to go now.
GOD bless and good night
Please pray that I receive a miracle
Kris Schmuland
