Hello again
Tonight it happened again. Mom did not recognize me twice. Once when I was feeding her. She looked at me like who are you that is feeding me dinner. And pushed me away. And then when I was giving her the nightly spa treatment. Both times all I could do was to hold her and tell her that I loved her. And I am having to keep telling her. I love you mom, Mom is the key word here.
This is very upsetting. I started to cry the second time. And just hugged mom.
For what ever I am feeling, I could not imagine what mom is feeling and thinking. It is horrible for her. I have seen this, now, three times.
With my grandfather then my father and now mom. I have said and I will say it again, I am a Mommy's boy. And have been.
I cannot accept anything less than doing what it takes to get to White Rock. And this means holding all to their words and promises. Including the PGT, especially the PGT
And I look to all for help. I cannot wait any longer to get out their. Mom needs me more than ever now.
I need to be spending as much time with her as possible. No matter what it takes.
This means fighting for everything and anything to get me out their. Whatever it takes I require to be their.
I will be praying without ceasing. I will call out to GOD for help. I will believe GOD will help me.
None of this is for me, but only for my mother. I am nothing without her. I am here to serve her. To make sure she is treated properly. To give her the best of everything.
No longer will I accept maybes. It is time for action.
This is a very serious situation and it seems that no one even gives a ####
If this were your mother. Wouldn't you do everything that it would take to do what is necessary to get yourself closer to your mother. Challenging every one's morals, values and what they actually stand for.
To try to get the real person out of everyone.
My mother is my rock. And I will do everything for her. She always has been.
GOD bless and good night
I need to get some sleep.
I am very stressed out right now. But imagine what mom feels.
