Hello again
So as to what is happening. Because the bags I have are falling apart. I lost what I bought for mom today. I did not even notice until I was unpacking at mom's.
I am using the superstore reusable bags. I have one large bag inside another large bag. Plus two other smaller bags. I guess I didn't put the bag in correctly. And noticed a very large hole in the bags, And nothing.
I am not even flush. As they would say. I spend everything on mom, I do believe have $3.00 left in the bank. I can get her a coke from the dollar store. And maybe a piece of fruit.
If I take my roommates empties in, I might be able to get her the water she likes.
In White Rock, it is hard water, and does not taste very good.
When leaving tonight. I got to the bus stop and there goes the one bus and as I was walking to another bus stop, that one went by as well.
I walk with a cane and not very fast. I was waving and nothing.
Great isn't it.
So I just love visiting my mother. It is the best feeling in the world. Nothing I have ever experienced before . Unconditional love for another. What a concept. One I never thought of before.
To look after your parent. And be their for her no matter what I feel like. Or if I even want to go or not. But going anyways. As mom can't leave, without someone taking her out.
And by all means, my sister's don't have the where with all to do anything like this. Even though, once again, the van was taken away from me to give to her. So she could do things for mom.
Never happened and will never will. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I have also been thinking about these things for awhile now. I don't even care if I get a girl friend or not. It just doesn't bother me one way or another.
I have a post up and get letters from women from different parts of the world. But it also seems that they are not who they say they are. Well, actually, not at all. They go along with the letters back and forth. And then they ask for money for something or another.
Little do they know, they have the wrong person. I am no where near gullible.
So I love it when mom falls asleep holding my hand at night. And the fact she likes to hold my hand the entire time I am their.
Makes me feel like someone actually cares about me. Oh yea Poor Me. No, not poor me. I am not one to be hugged. Or I don't even like to be touched. It is a space thing.
Mom gets so relaxed after her spa treatment, she falls asleep waiting to get ready for bed. But when they finally come, I mean finally, come to get her ready for bed. Mom gets made and they complain about it. By saying things like "she is so mad." Let's see, your asleep and then get awaken to be manipulated in positions that you don't want to be put into. And they say she gets mad. After they put mom into bed. It takes me a while to calm her down to the point where she is ready to go to sleep again.
No matter what I think or feel, I will never stop going to see mom daily.
GOD bless and good night.
Oh yea, The PGT.
They write me telling me that the hospital might not release any funds to me, So I write back letting them know, that it this is the case, I will be providing a list of what mom likes on a daily bassis'. And the cosmetic products she uses and where to get the best deal on it. Or exactly, where I go and get them and when I purchase so much I get $50.00 worth of product free. And since the products are expensive.Well fairly expensive. I can usually get a $100.00 worth of product.
Now the PGT is not ready to deal yet. The key word here is YET! I don't negotiate, but I will offer up something that is good for them and the hospital.
They both should really think about it and decide in my favour. It is beneficial to both of them.
I have some plans that need to be taken care of. And my plans are to make sure I can look after mom and provide her with everything she needs and wants. These plans will take a few years to complete. Provided things work out. But I need them to work out now.
I can't get a student loan for the summer semester, as I own them and have not made payments in several years. After speaking with them, I just have to provide my tax receipts for the last 10 years. And to prove that I was not able to make payments. As I have been spending my time helping to look after my parents.
Nothing to lie about here. I have put well over 100,000 miles on this body, traveling all over the lower mainland. And I put over 10,000 miles on a single pair of runners from Nike. Before they literally fell apart. Thanks Nike for making a great pair of shoes.
