Hello again
Happy Easter y'all
So I am feeling really bad again. As I don't feel I am a good enough son. I cant take mom anywhere. Besides out around the building. I can only take her out for an hour at a time,. I don't know why this is .
But I do believe this. That I am where I am to be. If I was married with children, it would be hard. no almost impossible for me to spend the time I do with mom.
But I am not, and I believe that this is where GOD wants me to be, exactly right now. At this time in my life and I would not want it any other way. Because this is exactly where I want to be.
I am extremely happy that this is my job. And I do what I do for my mother because I can and love to do it.
My only problem is that my bags are wrecked. The one bag is falling apart. The strap broke tonight, while on the skytrain. So what will I do, I will try to fix it tonight. Some how.
OK that is one of my problems. I do have many, but don't we all.
As I say over and over again. Ye who is without sin, let them cast the first stone.
I need new bags to carry moms things. Which is the only things in all the bags I carry. A back pack and a portfolio type bag is what I need. Don't worry, I am not asking anyone for help.
I seek help for my mother. I need money for a funeral. No she is not dieing anytime soon. But I have to start getting it together. As my sisters want as much as they can get and will cheap out on the funeral as they did with dad. A veteran, who could of had a free veterans funeral. And this is what they want for mom. Even though mom wants to be buried, and buried where her parents are. And I will do everything I can to make sure this happens.
Mom is going to get the funeral she wants. But by the grace of GOD, mom is healthy and strong. And mom is not going anywhere, anytime soon.
Now, I have given the PGT a way of not having to deal with me anymore. But of course they are so obstinate that they say no.
I have sisters who do nothing for mom. Not even flowers for Easter. And my younger sister did not even bother to come around.
Then their is the social worker, who kiss my sisters ass. It is closer for them to visit my mother. Then her bitches about the receipts for clothing.
I tell you this, Tell my sister to return all the things they took, clothing, jewelry etc.... and stop letting them take the stuff to begin with.
When mom moves, I will bring all the new clothes to her. And what is going on is a bunch of lies. There has been no bed opening up. BULLSHIT.
I want my mother out of their and I want her out of their now.
This is not nice to say, but seniors, in these places die all the time. And I know for a fact that there has been beds open up.
Now who is lying now. It is too easy to find out if anyone has passed away in the last many months.
What I will end with tonight is this:
We are given rare opportunities in life to show what type of person we truly are. We are given opportunities to help on another and show love to all. A person who will give completely of themselves for another.
What we do with these opportunities, is what makes us a caring and loved individual. Someone who others can look to for help and support. A person you know will be their in your time of crises.
I do believe I am such a person. And I show it daily. Yes I brag, but I have every reason to brag. As I do what we are taught to do. Love one another as we love ourselves.
And with this day, of Christs Resurrection, we all should know that Christ died for us, so as we may be free.
GOD bless and good night.
Kris
