Hello again
It started out to be an OK day. I was really tired. Lack of sleep. I had an interview today, plus one on Monday. I went to the interview and it was going great. She asked about my graphic work, as well as other computer skills I have. She was enjoying our conversation. When I arrived, she made me a tea. You see it was for a tea place. A warehouse. Where they mix tea . I applied for the job as I wanted to know more about tea. Since I only drink tea.
Well everything was going fine, until I started speaking normally. You see, I speak a certain way, to avoid people seeing that I am missing half my bottom teeth. I just started talking. All of a sudden, she tells me that she has to end the interview now, I have allot to do. You are the first person I interviewed. I will get back to you. Have a good day. I had not even finished my tea.
There goes that job, Again because of my missing teeth. I came back to White Rock and went to the denturist again, and asked how long would it take. We spoke about the price before. That is why I set up a campaign to get help to get dentures. I am covered to have the impacted teeth removed. But not for dentures. It would be two weeks before I could get them. I do have the teeth I have now. And they can't add teeth to my bottom dentures. To old.
Piss me off. Another job gone.
I need to work. I am going on interviews. I am applying for jobs. And I applied for more, when I returned to White Rock. After I went to the denturist.
Now tonight I went to an AA meeting. I know I do not belong there. I need to go to church. Not AA. Yes I was a drunk and a pot head. I do not drink and I do not smoke pot. Plain and simple.Nothing else.
Now I sit alone and write this .I am lonely. Not having anyone to call to speak with. Just myself. You see why I went to an AA meeting. To talk to someone. Didn't happen. I should of just got on the bus and went for a bus ride. I most likely would of spoken to someone.
It is very difficult for me. This year has been hard. I am doing everything I can. I am flat broke. Excuse me. $1.06 to my name, No idea where anything is going to come from. But I have a bus pass. So I don't have to sit home. Home for now! I need to start something right away. I have serious medical issues, but I will just have to ignore them. Deal with the pain. I have nowhere to move to.
And the worse time of the year. I watch Christmas movies and try to find the magic. But it just isn't happening. The Christmas magic came from me doing everything for my mother, to make her Christmas great.
I have never been alone for Christmas before in my life.I always had mom and dad. Now no one. The only person I had in my life,was my mother.
I wish that something good would happen. I am trying. I really am. But it seems no matter how hard I try, it is just getting worse off.
But I have a bus pass. Nothing else. And $1.06 won't get me very far.
Please, the only thing I really want is to give mom a memorial service. I don't care about anything else.
https://www.gofundme.com/krisschmuland
May GOD bless your days with wonders and peace
Kris
