Hello again
Well I am just desperate. I need some help and it is just not available to me. In any shape or form. I am trying. I keep trying to get a job, no luck so far.
My depression is in high gear. I really am trying to let it not get to me. It is very difficult to do. Sleep is being disturbed. I am just walking around in a cloud.
I am going to go and speak with a pastor to find out what is going on. The only friends I have are also wandering what is going on .. They know I am trying, they know I am not a bad person. I am not trying to do anything to anyone. I am not doing anything bad. I am doing what I can to help others. Doing what a good Christian should be doing. Trying anyways.
I don't expect anything. OK I wish for a miracle to happen right away. I need it.
I can't take this anymore. I am a good person. I am not evil
I use to enjoy Christmas, not anymore. I was harsh to say I hate Christmas, but it is getting there. Not kidding you.
What is it going to take to get out of this whole. If anyone has an answer let me know.
Can anyone help me with all of this.
I have a serious problem and I don't have an answer to it. Very serious. Cositnt more and more money each day.
OK that is it I don't know what to write
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
