Hello again
I have no idea why it is this way today. I didn't even get out of the house until after 3 pm and this is unusual for me. I am usually out by 1 or earlier.
Why I think is that I have not had a full night sleep in a very long time. Even before I moved here, but it is worse since I moved her. The woman in the wheelchair is always asking for something. In the middle of the freaking night. She yells Kris, Kris. I got myself caught on my oxygen cord. She does this all the time. She just doesn't get it, when I tell her I need sleep and you have to be careful and not do this. Then she will ask me to make her some toast. This is in the middle of the night. 3 pm or so. I tell her no.
Then all day long she wants something. Can you do this, can you do that. Yet she can do things for herself. But no.....
This women should not be on her own. She needs constant help and attention. So on top of her asking for things all the time. I wake up at 4 am every night. I have no idea why. Just do.
So I don't get much sleep at all.
And today, I say hello to mom first thing in the morning, then get up. The constant asking starts right away. I mean I don't even have time to have a smoke or just wake up.
This is why I need to move. And truthfully, I don't know where to move now. I don't have to stay in White Rock anymore. I can go anywhere. I mean anywhere.
I miss the tree's and the fresh air of Coquitlam. The parks, lakes, the mountains. White Rock has it's advantages. The ocean is right here. A 20 minute walk for me. But I have to take the bus back up. To steep for me. As it is I am in pain, just walking down there.
Now I need to give mom a memorial service and I am asking for your help again.
I have to continue to do this as I don't have the funds to pay for a service.
https://www.gofundme.com/ka556fdk
Thank you
I am just really messed up right now. Need help of a doctor. I am in pain 24/7 365. I mean in constant pain. Without a break, all day long. And not to mention my depression. And my OCD is really acting up lately. Plus, plus, plus..............................................
I have to go now. I am tired and I have to be up early to get my mother's wheelchair. Then re-arrange the storage locker to put it in there.
So.............
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
