Hello againmorrio
For the last few days I have been so full of anxiety that I couldn't even write. I have been extremely angry and frustrated. I don't even want to listen to people talk to me. They are just pissing me off. The crap that comes out of some people's mouths. It makes me want to just tell them to shut up. So I don't answer them. And walk away. What would you have me do. Tell them that they are just............. or walk away and keep my big mouth shut
I really miss my mother. I just don't want to be around anymore. And that is the truth. I have no one that is close to me to speak with. Access to metal health is none existent. Tomorrow morning I am suppose to go to this workshop group or something like that, On depression and anxiety. To listen to other's talk about there depression and anxiety. Really.
I need a psychiatrist not a group talking about what I already know. This is pissing me off already and I haven't even gone to a single group. Or whatever
I don't need to hear about other's depression. I am living it now.
Even though mom had her problems, we still did speak. No I never brought up my problems around her. She had so much more going on than my little problems.
I am so very pissed off at Al Hogg. I still think they gave mom something the night she passed away. It was so quick after I got back from the staff changing mom. This is when I believe they gave her something. They didn't even want me in the room.
So for me to get justice I have requested all of her records from the moment she arrived in White Rock until the time of her passing. Everything.
When I asked for the records, the staff member asked what I wanted. Everything. She said even the nurses notes. I answered, especially the nurses notes.
I just need to bring a copy of the will to them to photocopy it.
This I will do tomorrow, after this whatever it is .
I have to go now. I cannot continue to write as I am so full of anxiety and anger. I need to sleep but I don't think I will be able too.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
