What night is it anyways.

Hello again

I think it is Monday. Yes Monday. Who knows anyways. I am just trying to get hearing aids and I can't get any help at all from anyone or any where. What the ..... has happened to helping those who need it. I certainly don't have the 5 grand to buy them. I need them to advocate for mom and now to help my friend get justice for his mother. www.Gofundme.com/yugmns.

Now I was able to get to mom's early. And by doing so, I was able to feed her dinner early. Since mom has been having trouble swallowing and just chews and chews. I decided to just get there a little earlier and give mom more time to finish dinner. Which tonight we were done before the served dinner was even brought to mom ... We were already on dessert. Just about done dessert. And mom was full. We still had time before the regular care aid came in. On time as usual. So after I changed mom, we sat and I held her hand, she listened to music and watched what was on the TV at the same time.

My father use to watch wrestling and mom watched it along with him, so I wasn't surprised at mom somewhat enjoying it.

After mom was changed and I quickly went and did the dishes, mom was ready for her spa treatment. But not all of it. Just her face and arms. I was OK with that. It just mean't I had more time afterwards to just sit with her, holding her hand, while she fell asleep. Which is exactly what I did. But tonight mom wasn't ready to sleep. She wanted me to exercise her arms and was a little bit anxious. So when I needed to leave  mom was not asleep yet. I feel bad every time I have to leave and mom isn't asleep. I knew tonight she didn't want me to go.

Again I get no blank help from anyone. At all, And I am stuck in a place I don;t want to come back to each night. I actually hate it here. And everyone is telling me, just wait, GOD will find you a place. Do you know what I thing about that. ..........................................................................................  that is what I think about that. I am tired of hearing it. With no results. Nothing is changing, I try to do what I can but no one actually gives a, sorry. fuck about me. not a fucking soul. Everything I hear is just plain bullshit lip service. I am about to tell the next person who tells me this, to F off. And everyone else, that pays me the bullshit lip service, without actually doing something about something.

This is why I hate people. Full of shit. To into themselves and not caring about anyone else.

I am the face of the new poor. Does anyone care.

I am tired of all of these hashtags out there say I look like.............  well I look like a poor person.

Mom is doing well. Very healthy, as happy as she can be. She would  be allot happier if I lived closer to her.

I am out of here. Getting very angry.

GOD bless and good night.

Kris