Hello again
I just had and experience that writing this blog had a negative affect on my life. Yes I am out there and it is easy to look me up. This fact alone, damage a budding relationship.
I won't apologize for this blog. It is real and that is the way I wanted it to be. No stepping on egg shells. The real thing, the real feelings, the real emotions. Exactly what has and is happening. Raw and real.
IT IS RAW AND REAL. I know it has helped people who read it. It tells it like it is in these homes. I don't make this up. In fact I couldn't make this up. To unreal for that.
So I write and it does effect my life. Or I stop writing it and then have this company remove all traces of my online persona.
After this happened this weekend, I thought that I would wait until I hit 30,000 views and then delete this blog. But I have been read by individuals from all over the world. I mean all over. Places I really didn't know existed. Sorry for my ignorance.
This blog does and will continue to have an impact on my life. If I meet someone, they look me up and, well the rest is history.
I am not ashamed of it. It has to be told.
Now mom has been very tired and the TV watching by her roommate, late at night, is taking a toll on mom's health.
Everyday she is tired.
But mom does smile when she see's me. Yesterday, I forgot to kiss mom hello. She was trying, over and over again, to let me know. Then I stopped and read her and realized what I forgot to do. Then she was happy.
Just the little things, like forgetting to kiss her hello, means the world to mom. Just as mom needs me to sing our good night song to her, before she will go to sleep. She waits.
It was bath day yesterday and of course I needed to remove allot of blankets off of her. It is hot out side now. Mom doesn't need to have that many covers on her. Just the same thing. I feed her, than wash her face, arms and legs. Then the daily spa treatment. The same as it was today.
This time, though.While waiting for the care aid to come in, I was sitting with her, holding her hand. Mom was falling asleep and I was as well.
I told mom I will only do her face and arms tonight. She was so tired. I didn't want to keep her up any longer. So that is all I did.
I need to go now,
GOD bless and good night.
Kris Schmuland
