Hello again
Raining and everyone is complaining about it. I say to them, it is a rain-forest that we live in.... It is fine with me. I said it before and will say it again. I like the sound,smell and feeling of rain.
I arrived to see mom smiling at me. It makes me feel loved. And I know it makes mom feel great. To know no matter what I will be their each day at a certain time. I would love to be their more often, But , we all know what the but is about.
So we did our thing, give mom drinks, feed her dinner. After dinner I brushed her hair, 100 strokes. I don't know. All I do know is mom loved it.
Oh yea, didn't get my finger checked out today, but now my whole hand hurts. Really hurting right now. It is not the first time I hurt myself and won't be the last. I would just like to feel it when it happens. So I am not wondering later on, what the hell happened.
I gave mom her spa treatment, being careful of her left shoulder, not to put any pressure on it. Her legs are bending more now. I can get her left hand opened a little bit. Working on it.
Then mom was relaxed and ready for me to sing along with the music and hold her hand. Mom just relaxes completely and then there is the smile as she falls asleep.
The case manager at the PGT is still putting me off. Three weeks now for an answer and none in sight. I am waiting for a response from the social worker. This is not going continue in this manner. I will start writing negative things about her. More so than I am now. I will start using her name. The PGT frowns upon this. Then they threaten to sue. I now laugh at them and let them know that it would be in my favor as I will be able to gain access to there files. To prove that I am not making these allegations up.
So it is Friday and I really should go see my doctor. I don't want to as he does nothing for me. I need to find another doctor. One that will actually listen. This time I will have a list of what ails me to give to them my first appointment. It will make things easier. A check list
I didn't sleep again last night so I am going to go to bed right after this. Try to sleep. Not sure, I am hungry and nothing.
Please pray for my mother and that I can get hearing aids and find a place.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
