Hello again
Today mom seemed off a little. She wanted for me to bring her salad, but then did not want to eat it.
She was full, in both ways.
After dinner changed mom and then read to her for a while. I finished reading several chapters to her, then just sat holding her hand waiting for mom to be put into bed.
The staff member came and put mom to bed. When she was finished I went back to the room. As soon as I did, mom started to threw up. And threw up she did. Over and over again.
I don't know what it was that made her sick, but want ever it was did not agree with her. She was shaking and cold.
Mom threw up all over her pillow cases and sheets. I grabbed towels and was trying to clean it up and to hold a towel under mom's mouth while she continued to throw up.
She finally stopped.
Oh yea I called for a staff member to come and help me. We got the night gown off of her, the sheets off of the bed and wrapped her up in warm blankets. Until we knew mom's stomach was OK.
After a while we put a clean night gown on her and clean sheets. I just let the sheets go to the laundry. We have two more sets.
I didn't give mom her spa treatment. Didn't want to fuss with her. In case she got sick again.
Mom threw up several times. I just stood there reassuring her everything was OK. Not to fret. I held her hand, spoke to her, calming her down.
Now this is the part that upsets me the most.
The time I am needed the most, is when mom is sick. I should of been able to sit with her for hours. As I did when she was in the hospital with a broken hip. I stayed there and just held her hand.
Because I am 3 hours away, and needed to wash her new pillow. I had to leave. And this is upsetting me. Mom being sick and I could not stay.
I wanted to stay, if I lived in White Rock, I would of stayed until I new she would be OK. I would of stayed all night if I needed too.
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I don't know what to do about this. I have adds on Craigslist, Nothing. I am now putting a add anywhere I can think off.
I am going to go to all the churches, the rec centre. I have one up at one of the rec centres. The MLA's office. Even to the local news paper to see if they have a bulletin board.
Please pray for me.
Really I am not a bad person. Though some of you think I am a peace of shit. I could agree with that.
But mom is my life and I need to be close to her. For reasons as tonight
GOD bless and good night.
Kristopher Schmuland.
