Hello again
I have been arriving an extra hour early. This way mom and I are not rushed to get her drinks and prepared for dinner. Time to relax. Well, not rushed for me.
Getting their at 10 to 5 is to rushed and we don't even start dinner until well after 5 pm. This gives us more time after dinner to get things done at a slower pace. I don't do well being rushed. I tend to become a turtle. Slow right down. To solve this is to get their earlier. It is working out rather well.
Mom was wide awake, when I arrived and, as usual, As soon as she grabbed my hand, her eye's started to close. I really don't know what it is. Okay, security. Knowing that I am their and she is not alone. That I will hold her hand through-out the night, until I leave.
Mom ate all of her dinner, plus allot of fruit. I made a new smoothie, today. This mom really likes. When I finish the smoothie I put it in the freezer. It starts out with everything partly frozen still. So it is nice and cold and thick when I give it to her.
And tonight, when we were finished dinner, it was lights out for mom. I mean, no sooner did we finish and I did the dishes. Mom was falling asleep. And when I changed her, she was just about asleep. So I didn't give her a full spa treatment again. I will make it up tomorrow. Mom was full and to tired for this tonight. She would of just fussed about it.
Tonight was an uneventful night. Mom and I enjoyed each other's company and I sang to her, held her hand and otherwise I was just there for her.
That is all that really matters, after all. Just being there for her. Holding her hand, making her feel safe and loved. Nothing more. And I love every minute of it. I wouldn't trade it for anything. No amount of money can compare to what is given and received from taking care of mom. I learn from her and she gets my attention. And it is well deserved.
My mother did everything for us and I will do the same for her. I don't care what people think or say about me.
Please pray for us. It is to mom's benefit that I find a place close to her. I can do more for her and get her out of their for short trips.
GOD bless and good night
Kristopher Schmuland
