Hello again
My hand hurts and my arm from the tetanus shot. Oh well. Things happen. I know I am not the only one who is a klutz.
Bath day for mom. So when I arrived, the lights were out in the room and most likely that way all day. Mom was very hot. They had so many blankets on her. I immediately stripped the blankets off of her. And hurried to get the drinks out of the bags, I gave her cold drinks ASAP. Cold ice water. And she drank allot of this.
Mom was hungry today, as she didn't eat as much as usual last night. I got her some of her favorite salads and a large burger. On top of being to hot, she was also tired. Who wouldn't with the lights off all day. As well as it was raining out and cold.
I finally finished her tree and decorations. I am not sure if I wrote last night. I have been staying later and being very tired when I got home. I just needed to just eat and relax. I barely was able to watch one show. Had to keep starting over from where I remember drifting off to sleep.
Now back to mom, Being so tired,as she was. Mom only wanted a quick spa treatment. Her face and arms only. Afterwards is when I finished the tree and decorations. All the while mom was reaching out her hand for me to hold it while she falls asleep.
I felt very guilty that I couldn't do this, because of finishing up her Christmas decorations. I stopped and grabbed her hand, gave her a kiss and let her know that I am trying to finish as quickly as I can. But when I did finish it was almost 8:30 pm. I still needed to pack up everything. I did this quickly. And held mom's hand as long as I could. But needed to leave. It doesn't matter what time I got home.
Mom has been feeling good. Happy and smiling allot.
The other day, this one women sat down to speak with me, and stayed for 10 minutes. And mom did not like this at all. When I am their mom does not like me speaking with anyone. I don't blame her. She is alone all day. As she doesn't speak. Others don't talk to her. The staff ignore her, Mom will squeeze my hand tighter and pull at me. To stop me from speaking with others. She will get vocal in her upset manner. I understand what is happening. Others have no idea.
We listened to Christmas music tonight. And while I was finishing up the decorations I sang along with the Christmas music. I heard mom singing along as well. I saw her smile brightly,when I came over to her to sing to her. ..
I am and can be goofy, and will sing in this manner. She laughs and smiles. I let go and just be, for mom. I don't with hold any emotions from her. I let her see the real me. No one else has or cares to. Mom knows.
Tonight I needed to clean up a corner in my room. Pack it up. It was mostly garbage. Things I don't need or haven't used in a very long time. Just finished before writing this.
It is now getting late and I still need to eat and just sit back and relax. My hand need the rest.
I ask again if you would pray for me to find a place ASAP that is affordable for me.
GOD bless and good night
Kris Schmuland
